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Valediction (Three/Three)
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Dana
Our little period of happiness didn’t last. I think we all knew it couldn’t, but it still pissed us all off in varying ways. There were about four months of absolute bliss on my part, which was a lot more than I probably deserved, but so much less than I wanted. I was upset because I really didn’t feel like I had enough time to tell everyone, especially Alice, what they meant to me. I did manage to finish the letters, but they didn’t seem like half enough.
I started to get confused a lot more often as time went on. Alice started having the nurse come over more when I stopped being able to move much on my own. It was embarrassing not to be able to make it to the bathroom easily, and it was usually a struggle to get there. Then again, I wasn’t eating much at all by that time, so I fought to get a catheter put in. I didn’t want to wear diapers. That probably sounds retarded, considering everything, but I didn’t.
I was incredibly lucky. As the clocked ticked down I knew I was in a lot better shape, mentally at least, than a lot of people who end up succumbing to cancer. I kept remembering Bette’s dad, how delusional he was at the end. I’m not sure if it meant anything, but I fought against my brain in an attempt to hold onto myself as long as I could. Again, I was lucky. It worked, most of the time.
I hated the nurses. When I’d wake up disoriented, one of them was usually the first face I saw, and it bugged me. I knew, on some level, that my annoyance over that was irrational, but I couldn’t seem to help it. Before too long, I started to have a hard time recognizing everyone, even my friends. I was usually only out of it for a short time and able to come back to them before too long, but it still hurt them, and it made me furious because I love them so much. They were always around, and I was glad of it for Alice’s sake. I’d have much rather they left me to die alone, mostly so they wouldn’t see me the way I ended up, but that was just the cancer making me into a bitch. Alice needed them.
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Wow I had to choke back tears and swallow a lump in ym throat more than a few times. I never cry at fanfics but this one almost got me. Perfect MT just fucking perfect. xx Oh and get better soon hun :)
perfect, very sad.. but perfect. Thank you.
*blows nose and puts tissue away* I was dreading the end of this story. This story was amazingly beautiful but SO sad. I’m looking forward to an update of your ‘happy’ story “You” (especially to that certain something coming :P).
Wow, what a beautifully written piece, expertly catching the emotions inlcuding sadness, love and, yes, happiness of these two wonderful people. You are definitely a wonderful writer and I hope you are feeling much better and can continue with YOU very soon. Thank you
okay – i can barely see what i writing due to the tears that are in my eyes. that was really beautiful. definitely your best writing so far. please give us something happy now. that was devestating. great job.
This story should come with a warning label like ‘May Cause Dehydration’ – it was exquisitely written. I miss Dana.
amazing as per usual. feel better so you can get back to writing a happier version of this in “You”.
Perfect. The way it should have been to begin with.
Very sad, but better than the show by a lot, more settled and peaceful and loving
you had me in tears these two last chapters :'( great story!
*gul* This was breathtakingly beautiful. I choked up more then once. You made me cry. *sigh* It was very moving, so much better and so much more human then the stuff we got to see on tv. I liked it. But I’m glad to see the newest part of “you” soon.
I know you had to do it and you did it perfectly. You are such a gifted writer even when I am not thrilled with the subject. You helped fill the void IC left.
Simply beautiful!WOW…I have a lump in my throat and holding back tears!!!You are truly gifted!!!
That was just beautiful. I was crying at the end if only the show could have done such a great job.
Best fanfic ever. What more can I say. You are incredibly talented
thank you for this story. i can’t think of a more fitting ending to dana’s cancer story. you’re truly gifted and i sincerely hope you’ll continue to write danish fanfics.
I so inspired by the beauty in how you wrote this. It gripped my heart and stayed with me. I read it yesterday, cried my tears but still it’s with me. Thank you for sharing your talent. I am so touched.
Ok I hardly even comment fanfics but how could I not on this one? I am literally in tears. I never cry from stories or movies. If you think of the saddest movie ever, I guarantee I could watch it and not one tear would form. Yet, these last two chapters have kept me crying. This fic was absolutely amazing. You’re amazing! Blew IC out of the water! They should take lessons from you. Can’t wait for an update on “You”.
Picturing the scene: You’re reading a book, or watching a movie, and you just have to call it off because you’re so into it that you find it almost painful to keep on doing it. So you decide to just quit. You press the pause bottom. You put the book in the freezer. Well, this has happened to me twice: the first one was a movie by Isabel Coixet; the second one ,Valediction. A couple of months ago I quit reading it at some point of the second chapter. I knew it was just fiction, but it felt so real… I just couldn’t make it. (I know, I know… Too corny!) But yesterday I did. I read all of it, and well, you got me speechless (you know… my English skills are so limited!! :p) Today I’ve bound it!! I handmade a little book (I love arts & crafts!). But unlike Alice with Dana’s letters, I think I won’t be able to read it again… I promise I won’t put it in the freezer, though!