Are you ready to leave them Shane? Are you ready to let them go? Are they ready to let you go? What will happen to them Shane? Do you think they’ll miss you? The little fuck up that you are…I think they’ll be happy. I think Alice is going to cry. You should say hi to Dana for her.

Dana, in all this time I haven’t really thought of her. I wonder if she’ll be where ever I’m going. I wonder if she is still the same Dana…if she still laughs the same way or says the wrong things at the wrong time still. I wonder if she missed us…if she even remembers us, if she remembers me.

What are you doing Shane? They’re going to see that you’re not enjoying your little party. What’s wrong with you Shane? Why won’t you say it? Don’t you believe that you’re going to die? Do you think we’re joking? You’re dying and they can’t do anything about it, not even Carmen can save you.

The music is barely audible with these voices screaming in my ears. With the visions of my friends swimming in my head…the ground moves from under my feet and I sit down thinking how this feels like a bad trip. My stomach turns, the air shifts and my blood boil in this heat. They walk around trying to forget…trying to act as if everything is normal.

Normal? You were never normal Shane…or have you forgotten that? You know we’re going to steal your life from you, right? We’ll take your name; we’ll kill your family and even take Carmen from you. What are you trying to do Shane? Save yourself? Ha ha ha ha ha.

There is a cool mist in the air that lingers slightly on my skin as Tina jumps into the pool. The sounds of laughter ringing out around me and I can’t tell if it’s these voices in my head laughing or if it’s my friends. My family, I haven’t been thinking about them I mean what will happen to them?

“Hey Shane,” Bette shouts above the voices, above the noises. “You want anything to eat?” she has a plate of food in her out stretched hand like she’s waiting for me to take it.