“I tried to help you and you shut yourself down, so I was selfish,” I said, “I didn’t understand that you had your own pain too, I just focused on mine. I told myself that you had lost your faith in me as a protector because I couldn’t save our child. I blamed myself. I didn’t care for you enough. So I turned to Candace.”

“Why didn’t you tell me all of this Bette?” Tina said, I could hear the anger in her voice, “I didn’t shut down Bette, you did.”

And when your secret heart                                                                                                                     Cannot speak so easily                                                                                                                                     Come here darling, from a whisper start                                                                                                          To have a little faith in me

“I know, and that’s why everything that happened, all of it, is my fault,” I said, “I was being a selfish asshole. I betrayed you while you were failthfully supporting me. Even though you were hurting so much with the death of our child, you fought through it all to be by my side. You were strong and I was weak. I don’t blame for losing your faith in me.”

“Did you feel like Candace had faith in you?” Tina asked.

Now that was a hard question.

And when your back’s against the wall                                                                                                         Just turn around and you, and you, you will see                                                                                                I will catch you, I will catch your fall, baby                                                                                                     Just have a little faith in me

“I was like an idol to her,” I answered, “she worshipped the ground I walked on. And that’s what I wanted. It’s not what I needed, it’s what I wanted.”

“So she give you what wanted?”

“No,” I said, “with her it was always meaningless sex. With you it was always making love. When I was done with her I felt nothing but sorrow, guilt and emptiness, but with you…with you I feel complete.”

I heard Tina’s deep sigh and silence filled the room again, except for the rain and the enchanting song on the radio.

Well, I’ve been loving you for such a long time, girl                                                                                Expecting nothing in return                                                                                                                          Just for you to have a little faith in me

“I don’t expect you to have faith in me again,” I said, “I am failing you as a provider and a partner. Even the social services lady can see it.”