“None of us is innocent. We both made mistakes. We both knew it was coming, it was luring around the corner, yet we didn’t change our actions. How long have we tried to change the outcome of what we did? But I learned that the only way to change a result is to change your behaviour. We were frozen in this state of our relationship, and neither of us did an attempt to thaw it and move on, take it to a next level. We didn’t think there was another level. In a way, it was good we were apart. We had to be apart to realise how much we wanted the other person, needed the other one. We had to be apart and take a closer look at ourselves. But we’ve taken enough time. It’s time to be together again. I’m sure you won’t fuck up. There’s a bright side to your cheating; you’ve done the worst thing already.”

“I know you’re right. I really do. However, I don’t know if I can do this, if I can afford this. What if we fail? We will be even more heartbroken and end up hating each other for thinking we had a chance. We have so many at stake, we have a daughter to think about. We come along great now, and that’s good for her. If her mommies get together again, that’s even better. But if her mommies discover that it isn’t what they thought it would be, if they find out that it wasn’t a good idea and they separate again – that will be another story.”

“Why all those doubts? You used to be so headstrong, so determined. You were always so sure of yourself. You were so sassy, so confident, so cocky. You were a big and strong person. You always protected me from everything and everyone. You even protected me from myself. I’ll admit it was too much at times, but now, I don’t see anything of that person anymore. When did you become this humble, this hesitant, this doubtful?”

“Since you became this good at talking about feelings, this strong, this powerful, so much your own woman.”

“I’ve always been my own woman. I was when I was with Eric. I was in the beginning of us dating. But slowly, it faded more into the background. It’s a part of me I lost in our relationship and now found back again. You were always so self-absorbed and I got used to you treating me like a rare piece of art. As the ending was nearing, I pretended that I didn’t like that, that I didn’t want it. But the truth is that I enjoyed it. You made me feel so special and so wanted. I reveled in it. I only denied that to myself and to the world. I see it now, and it won’t happen again. I’ll keep that part of me very much alive. You should go and find something of the cocky part of you back.”

“I want to, but only if you join me on my search. When did you become this good at talking things through? When did I?”