Home am I finally home?… I can’t be sure of anything at this point.

A light hurts my eyes, I feel myself being pulled forward, I’m standing in my bedroom.

“Dana do you wanna take a shower?”

Who’s talking to me, Oh it’s Shane, I’m with Shane she took me to the hospital.

God don’t just don’t, I don’t want to think about that. Tears I feel tears again, I can’t believe I have any of them left.

Shane turns me to face her “Dana…Are you ok? I mean I know your not ok, but just tell me what I can do to make this better?”

I pull her into my arms or at least I think I do “I want to shower.”

She leads the way into the bathroom, “Do you wanna be alone?”

Alone that’s funny I’ll never be alone again he will never allow that, My knees give way I feel arms around me now and look deep into her green eyes “Shane….” I can hardly breathe “It hurts so much..I can’t…”

She takes my hand “I’m gonna help you now ok.”

I don’t understand at first what she means but then she tugs at the shirt I’m wearing the cops took my dress they said there might be evidence on…

I hear sobbing where is that coming from, is that coming from me?

I turn my head away as Shane pulls down the jeans she pauses as she touches the panties “Dana is it ok if I take these off?”

I shake my head, slowly and gently I feel the fabric go down my thighs. A wave of nausea hits me as I think of the last time my panties were taken off.

Shane looks at me “It’s ok now. Your safe.”

Is she kidding? It’s not ok I don’t think it ever will be again, but I don’t say a word as I step into the shower.

I turn the water on and get it as hot as I can stand it, I want his smell off me, I want this filth he left behind gone.

Somethings not right I’m scrubbing as hard as I can but I can still smell him. I’ve been in the tub so long that the waters cold but he’s still here.

The water is off now did I do that? No it must have been Shane. She’s leading me toward my bedroom.

She’s dressing me in something, I flinch as her hand brushes one of my breast “I’m sorry Dana.” Her eyes there so sad,I’ve never seen that in her before.

She’s helping me onto the bed, my head is pounding and I close my eyes but his face is there taunting me.

There truly is no escape, “Shane….please” Am I begging her for something, I’m so tired I just need to sleep.

Suddenly I feel her beside me, her arms pull me close to her “Sleep now. I promise no one will hurt you. I won’t let them.”

Safe, is that what i’m feeling now? Safety in Shane’s arms, “Don’t let him come Shane. Please don’t let him hurt me again.”

She tightens her grip, Is she the one crying now? Will this night ever be over?

I can’t get my mind to be quite, if it would just shut up I know I could sleep.

Will I ever sleep again? Will this night ever end?

Shane moves closer to me, I feel her breath on the back of my neck “Honey just try to let go. I’m right here, your safe. Sleep now.”

I blink away new tears as I turn to her, our faces are only inches apart “I can’t…He won’t let me.”

She pulls me closer “He’s not here honey. So you can rest now.”

I shake my head “He never left me…I can still smell him…Still feel him.”

Shane’s tears streak down her face “I’m so sorry Dana….God I love you so much….I’m…I’d do anything to take this away.”

I close my eyes again because there to heavy to keep open and sleep finally takes me away.