This isnt real Shane didnt really call me just now did she? I cant be on my way to Dana because of this can I?

My hands wont stop shaking I can hardly keep them on the wheel but I cant worry about that I just have to get to Dana.

God why is this taking so long she needs me and I need to see her, need to hold her. I need to tell her that none of this is her fault.

I love her so much why did this happen to her, Dana didnt deserve any of this but then no woman deserves this.

Why I want to know, why Dana…why did this happen to her? I scream it at the night but get no answer in return.

Finally her house comes into view and I sit outside in my car for a minute I cant get my legs to move, I cant get my mind to understand this. Once I get out of this car this horrible thing will be real, it will be a nightmare that I wont be able to wake from. The woman that I love was raped and I dont want that to be true.

Get out and go to her now. I tell myself as I get out and walk up to her front door.

Panic sets in as I ring the bell I dont know if Im strong enough, what if I fall apart when she needs me the most.

Shane suddenly appears, tears streak her face she almost falls into my arms.

How is she?

Green eyes lock with my own Its bad Al…shes…hes killed something inside her and I dont know how to help her.

Why didnt you call me from the hospital Shane I could have… I stop in mid- sentence because I dont know what I could have done.

I wasnt thinking about anything but getting Dana help god Alice you have no ideal how bad she looked….

I close my eyes not wanting to even imagine what Shane must have seen.

Where is she?

Upstairs she finally fell asleep but it took awhile we should go check on her.

Before we can a scream fills the night and together we run up the stairs.

Danas sitting on the bed, knees pulled to chest, I cant get air into my lungs. She looks so small, so fragile. Broken she looks broken.

Slowly I walk over to her, she looks at me with hollow eyes Did…do you know?

I shake my head as I sit beside her, I try to take her hand but she jumps at my touch.

Are you ok…?

What a stupid question I realize as its coming out of my mouth, shes not ok and I know it.

I…Im numb….I cant feel anything at all.

I dont know what to say, Im so mad no wait, Im furious at the ***** that did this. I want to take all this pain from her.

I…Dana….Im sorry….

Sorry no thats not the right word Im beyond sorry there isnt a word to describe the way I feel.

Im so tired Alice but I cant sleep because hes the monster in my nightmares.

My heart breaks how could someone have done this to her?

She begins to sob I want so badly to hold her Dana can I hug you?

She doesnt respond instead she throws her arms around me.

I hold her close as Shane wraps herself around us. This isnt real it cant be but it seems it is.