Bette cared about Tina though. More than that, she loved the blonde and that just made things so much more different. It wasn’t just Tina’s first time Bette was coming to realize, it was hers too. She wanted their first night together to be perfect, which it clearly wasn’t.

They should be making love slowly, for hours upon hours. They should be writhing together, naked in a soft warm bed. Not on the cold leather of Tina’s living room couch.

Bette’s kisses became softer, slower and eventually she stopped altogether. She pulled back and straddled the breathless blonde underneath her, looking down at Tina through unsure darkened eyes.

"What’s wrong?" Tina asked softly and a little shakily, her body lightly trembling under the brunette. She reached up and touched Bette’s very warm cheek, trying to comfort the suddenly troubled brunette.

Bette grasped Tina’s wrist and the blonde was able to see the uncertainty in her darkened eyes. Tina saw want and desire but there was also hesitance.

"It’s just . . Maybe we shouldn’t do this right now"

Tina’s eyebrows knitted together, her pounding heart somehow started to beat even faster with fear of where Bette was going with her words. "What? Why?"

Bette had her explanation already planned out in her mind but for some reason, the words wouldn’t leave her lips. She couldn’t voice how she felt and the more she thought about it, the more silly it all sounded. " I don’t know . . you don’t think we’re moving too fast?"

Tina wanted to laugh at how unsteady Bette’s words were, she didn’t even believe them herself yet she was trying to convince Tina to.

"Well I can only speak for myself but I’ve wanted this" She arched her center into Bette’s and a low groan filled her ears, "I’ve wanted you for so long. I can’t wait anymore, baby. I don’t want to wait anymore"

Tina saw that raw lust and desire return in Bette’s already dark eyes when she uttered the word "baby". It was the first time she had ever said it to the brunette and it effected her the way Tina had hoped it would. Still, that same hesitance reared its ugly head and Tina couldn’t help but wonder why.