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This ‘why’ is probably consequential, too. I just don’t have it in me to say it out loud.
You walk past me, and as I step aside I have to ask, now that my fears have come to the surface, now that I know I’m safe in the dark of night. Now that I know the darkness won’t allow you to see everything. And I have to ask. I have to know.
"Bette," I muster, and you turn to look at me.
A part of me fears you can see right through me.
"Are you in love with Jodi?"
It almost sounds like a plea. Hearing it out loud I hear myself begging you to put my fears to rest. Begging you to tell me that the kiss is a step towards figuring things out, that I was not a drunken mistake, or a momentary lapse of judgment.
If you don’t love her, I can understand why you cheated on her and kissed me.
You pause. You hesitate. You consider your words, and I’m torn between hope and heartbreak.
Hope, because your pause allows me to believe you need to consider Jodi’s place in your life when you’re not in love with her.
Heartbreak because you know telling me you love her will destroy what’s left of our life from before.
Tell me you don’t know and that’s still better than the heartbreak.
You look at me, meet my gaze. And you answer readily.
"Yes. I am."
The heartbreak wins out, I recognize my own words returned to me, which makes it hurt a little more than previously projected.
Your answer stuns me, and almost immediately, once I recover from the impact of your reply, I find the need to seek shelter.
I need to get away from you.
I return to the party on autopilot, I can’t even stand to watch you walk away. I make my way back to Shane and Jenny’s house with a determination to numb the pain as only alcohol can, even though I know there will be consequences in the morning. I need to numb this pain for at least the rest of the night. I’ll face the harsh light of day in the morning.
Ask me now if I am sorry that I was too afraid to tell you why I’m sorry the kiss happened. Am I sorry that once again the fears won out?
Yes. I am.
(then we all know what happens one episode later…)
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Definitely clever. We all know that after this B&T started an affair. Someone is going to get hurt (most likely). Am I still wanting B&T to be together permanently even though they are doing Jodi dirty? Yes. I am.
Both needs to take time[They have for awhile] Now thing has change,but someone gets hurt, Their track record its good, Eric,Alice Helena,the girl in NY,Henry Brenda and all the in between. As much as I love Bette and Tina together. Let the go slow so it might stick this time for ever. thanks
i’m with lamentamini on wanting B&T together thing…and once again: brilliant and amazing chapter, i’m always waiting for your stories and i’m never disappointed…thank you
I’m a Tibetter all the way and I’m glad we’re getting to see them somewhat together this season. BUT, I think your Tina is more true to her character. I have to believe she would have an issue with not only Bette cheating, but being a participant. Love your insights Tiff. Hope to see more from you soon :)
well done!!! i loved it. yes we know what happened. it happened over and over again on my tv. thx
A thoughtful chapter from your poised metaphorical pen. Such explanations are in short supply on the show. I’m happy we have you to fill in the gaps. By the way, I was at an Avril Lavigne concert a couple years ago and there was a wide range of ages in the audience. I don’t think you gave anything away with the reference!
Yes, we do know and loved it the entire time they were together on the screen. The pain that was Bette’s face as Tina said that she regretted the kiss and then the Pain on Tina’s face as Bette told her she loved jodi was heart wrenching. I wanted to reach out and push them together and force them into a room to work out what they really wanted to say.
Tiff, you are as adept with your pen as JB and LuH are with their acting!
yeah, that cheating habit of Bette’s is a worry.
That was good, thanks!
yeah…but oh well the there’s 5.06…geez i do hope by the last ep. of s5 they’ve made more progress…
Very well written, it gaves more insight into that episode, they should really talk and Unfortunately we can’t see much of that happening in the show. Thanks
tiff_duke, thank you. I would trade half if not all my attempts for any one of your well written stories. Reference to your age range impresses all the more. Again, thanks.
Great post. I agree, Laurel is smoking this season.
Very clever writing and expectionally well written, as always!
Hey TD, I am completely blown away with your wonderful words here. Giving an honest explanation for a heart-breaking moment between these soul mates. Fear is potentially destroying their chance of a future together. Thank you for giving us all this insight into the paradox that BnT have become. Many. many thanks from Your Loyal Fan.
just love your stories tiff…i laugh i cry and i get pissed off but i always come back for more…waiting on next post….
Great stuff, thanks Tiff. And speaking of great stuff: ‘Bette caught Tina’s hand as the blonde turned to leave. “Wait.”…’ – Just in case you feel like continuing a certain “Long Walk” – just remember there are lots of us willing to join you. Thanks again! … ;-)