Jess rubbed her head yawning,
“You still not feeling good?” Carmen asked
“I’m just tired” Jess admitted
Amy pressed play on the DVD they decided on watching Mulan
“Gotta love Disney” Amy said sitting back down
30 minutes later the boys came back, Jess had fallen asleep with her head resting on Carmen shoulder.
“She doesn’t hate you that much” Amy whispered
Carmen smiled “She’s unaware it’s there”

Mark banged the door closed causing Jess to jump practically of the sofa.
“Shit I’m sorry, I’m sorry” mark apologized
“You idiot!” Lisa snapped
“Jess its fine it was just the door” Carmen said wrapping her arms around Jess
Jess broke free leaving the living room going into her side of the house.

“Mark fucking hell dude!”Jace said
“I didn’t mean it, I said I was sorry”
“I’ll go check on her” Carmen said getting up
She walked into Jess’s side of the house; Jess was hunched up on the sofa rocking back and forth.
“Are you okay?” Carmen said walking over and sitting next to Jess
“I’m fine I just got a fright” Jess said “You all probably think I’m a right lunatic”
“No-one thinks that were all here because we care and want to help” Carmen said
“Carmen I was a first class bitch to you and I don’t get why you still flipping care and seeing you every day is doing my head in!” Jess said
“Why?” Carmen asked
“Because I spent months getting over you, infact make that years, and now you show up and I’m right back to where I started” Jess stated “And I’m and my flipping lowest, I don’t even know who I am, I jump if I hear a noise, I can’t sleep and I don’t know wither I’m coming or going, I’m terrified to be alone.”
“If only we could take back what we said, undo what we did and delete some things them maybe we wouldn’t hurt this much right?” Carmen said looking at Jess “Because I’m still hurting Jess and I’m angry I didn’t fight for you because then you wouldn’t be in this situation, But the truth is I didn’t want to hold you back or for you to resent me for keeping you committed to something”
“I didn’t want to hold you back so I let you go, I didn’t want you having to live in the spot light” Jess sighed “Kirsty knew I loved you and she knew it wasn’t going to change no matter how hard I tried so she settled for second best and I paid the price in blood” Jess said getting up “And I spent 3 years getting wasted and for the past 8 months I’ve had the shit kicked out me every few days so I guess I lost”
Carmen got up and walked over to Jess, she took both her hands and looked her straight in the eyes.
“You need to stop doing this to yourself” Carmen said
“You need to stop coming round and being here because I can’t handle you being nice to me, I hate myself so much”
“Well tough shit because I don’t hate you, you better get used to me being around because ‘m not going anywhere, I love you Jess, the old you, the new you, I just love you”
“You don’t, you can’t” Jess cried
Carmen wiped the tears away and took a deep breath.
“Well I do” Carmen said “And it’s killing me to see you hurting like this”
“It’s killing everyone” Lisa said causing the girls to turn “Jess I’m your twin I know everything, I know how you’re feeling, you hurt I hurt remember?”
“I can’t take it anymore Lisa, I’m terrified to go to sleep so I stay awake all night, and now she’s free to walk about, and I’m freaking out incase she comes near me”
“She’s not going to step anywhere near you I promise” Carmen said
“And if she does she won’t leave breathing” Lisa said pulling Jess into her arms “Shhhh it’s okay”
“Can you stay with her a second” Lisa asked getting up
“I’m not going anywhere” Carmen said pulling Jess into her arms “Do you hear me? I’m not going anywhere”