I don’t wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I’m okay
Cause everyone’s perfect in unusual ways
So you see, I just wanna believe in me

The mirror can lie
Doesn’t show you what’s inside
And it, it can tell you you’re full of life
It’s amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile

I’m quickly finding out
I’m not about to break down
Not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through

Not gonna be afraid
I’m going to wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I’m okay
Cause everyone’s perfect in unusual ways
So you see, now, now I believe in me

The crowd all clapped and cheered.
“AND CUT!” The director shouted
Jess got up and walked backstage.
“Well done” Jace said kissing her on the cheek
Jess turned tears streaming down her face.
“Babe no don’t get upset, why you upset? What’s wrong?” Jace asked
Jess shook her head lifting her stuff and leaving the studio.
“Jess come on don’t run please” Jace said chasing her
Jess kept running, she ran all the way home and through the backyard to her side of the house. She opened the door walking into the room throwing anything she could get her hands on off the wall.
Bette and Tina parked in the drive, Carmen right behind them.
Bette opened the front door she could hear the banging.
“Mason go up to your room please” Tina said
“But”
“Come on buddy I’ll come too” Jace said ushering him up the stairs
Carmen, Bette, Tina and Lisa all hurried to Jess’s side of the house.
Lisa covered her mouth in shock at the mess Jess had made in the space of 10 minutes.
Carmen walked over pulling Jess into her arms. “Babe calm down”
“I am such a fucking idiot. I let her kick the shit out of me for 6 fucking months and I fucking hate it, even today when I seen her I couldn’t stop shaking how pathetic am I” Jess snapped
“You’re not pathetic, your anything but pathetic” Bette said “Jess look at me and listen very carefully, you did nothing wrong, what happened shouldn’t have happened”
“I can’t get it out my head mama and it’s killing me!” Jess admitted “I hate what it’s doing to me”
“Then we will find someone to help you sort you!” Tina said
“And I’ll find a cleaner to sort this” Lisa added
Bette and Tina looked at her
“So I’ll just go sort mason out” Lisa said making a quick exit
“I hate the fact everyone is talking about my life, I hate the fact everyone knows about my life and I hate the fact I don’t know what to do it’s all getting too much for me” Jess said sitting down
Tina sat beside her and Bette knelt down infront of her.
“Listen to me, you take one step at a time and you talk to us, we can’t help you if you don’t tell us what’s going on in your head” Bette explained
“Your Mama is right Jess, were not mind readers, we all love you and we all want to help you but you need to let us” Tina said squeezing Jess’s hand
“All this stress isn’t good for your health either; you’re going to put yourself in hospital” Bette stated
Carmen started tidying the mess Jess had made. She was nervous and annoyed at how messed up Jess was over Kirsty. She was planning in her head how to get revenge without her losing her job.
Tina got up and started helping Carmen, Carmen didn’t even notice.
“I want to go a walk; I need to clear my head”
“It’s 11oclock at night Jess” Bette said
“I know but”
“Ok let’s go I’ll come too” Bette said getting up and pulling Jess up they walked out the entrance to Jess’s side.
“You okay sweetie?” Tina asked breaking the silence
“I’m not too sure at the minute Tina” Carmen said
“Lisa!” Tina shouted
Lisa walked through
“Come give us a hand please” Tina said
“Ok” Lisa said “Mason is sleeping”
Jace appeared behind Lisa
“Fucking hell” Jace said “I’ll get a bucket for the glass”
“Mum what do we do to help her?” Lisa asked
“Nothing we can do we need to let this run its course”
“Can’t we get her a counselor or something?” Lisa asked
“I’ll speak to your Mama later and see what she thinks” Tina said
“Carmen what to do you think?” Lisa asked
“I think I love her so much and I’ll do what I need to; including cleaning up a mess every time she freaks out” Carmen said “I should have killed Kirsty today when I had the chance”
“No because then you get in trouble, and that’s no use to Jess” Tina said
“But”
“No but’s Carmen, Jess needs you without anymore drama or stress, don’t you think we want to punch her teeth out too? Because trust me my wife would love the opportunity to do so, twice this week I’ve talked Bette round and twice this week she’s talked me round”
“What was the bitch even doing near her, thought she wasn’t allowed 100 feet?” Lisa asked
“Kelly forgot she was coming, and by the time she remember it was too late, but I had Declan my co worker watch Jess so I knew she was safe and he contacted me straight away”
“She’s actually broke her laptop Mum” Lisa said picking it up
“Don’t worry about it I’ll get it sorted” Tina said “Put it on the table in the kitchen please”
Jace lifted the bucket of broken glass “I’ll put this in the bin and get the vacuum cleaner”
Lisa walked back in, she pulled Carmen into a hug
“Thank you” Lisa said
“What?” Carmen asked confused
“I know my sister is always going to be safe with you, and that’s a huge weight off” Lisa smiled
Later Carmen was filling Andrew in on what happened
“So she wrecked the place?” Andrew asked
“Yep, I don’t know how to help her” Carmen stated slowing down the treadmill she took a drink of her water and then stepped of the treadmill and going over to the cross trainer, Andrew did the same.
“Well were off for a few days so that gives you time to just spend together”
“It’s so frustrating because I want to rip Kirsty’s fucking head off, She’s completely destroyed Jess’s confidence, Jess never took shit from anyone even yesterday when she bumped into her you could see the terror in her face” Carmen explained
“Hun it’s going to take time, you have to remember all the shit that bitch put her through, her self-esteem is bound to be low”
“I left her sleeping this morning; Bette’s going to look into getting her a councillor”
“Maybe that’s what she needs a complete stranger to talk to”
Declan walked into the gym “Morning guys why you in here?”
“We don’t start till 10” Andrew explained “So we thought we’d get a workout in”