Carmen walked out the door, jess quickly ran after her.
“Carmen hear me out for 2 minutes please”
“What’s to hear your running yet again and I’m left with a broken heart yet again” Carmen said facing Jess with her arms folded
“Listen to me” Jess said taking both Carmen’s hands “I need to do this because I’m a mess right now and I don’t know how to deal with that”
“Your my mess” Carmen stated “I love you Jess what is it going to take for you to bloody realise that”
“I love you too, and I will come home to you, I promise but at the minute I’m not good for anyone babe please look at the bigger picture here”
“Tell me where you’re going?”
“I can’t babe because you won’t stay away I know you won’t”
“Why is that such a bad thing?” Carmen asked
“Because I need to do this on my own, I caused this mess I need to fix it”
“You didn’t cause anything” Carmen stated
“I did a long time ago, I need to fix me so I can be the best person for you, you deserve the best Carmen”
“I don’t want the fucking best I just want you” Carmen admitted
“And you have me, I’m yours” Jess said
“When do you leave?” Carmen asked
“In a few hours”
“Brilliant I don’t even get to properly say goodbye because I’m due in work” Carmen said getting upset
Jess cupped Carmen’s face in her hands wiping away the tears. “You’ve showed me how it feels to genuinely really care and love someone at no cost, I love you and when I get back I’m going to prove that to you, I need to fix me before I can fix us”
Carmen nodded “ok”
Jess leaned in kissing Carmen softly before going back into the house.
Bette was pacing up and down

“This is utterly ridiculous”
“Mama listen to me, I need to do this!” Jess said “I’m leaving in an hour, so we can spend it bitching and fighting or you can help me make sure I have everything I need”
Jess looked over at Mason. He was sat on his beanbag not amused in the slightest.
Jess took a deep breath and walked over to him. She kneeled down.
“Buddy I need to do this”
“Why do you always go away Jess? Why can’t you just do it here?”
“Do you like seeing me angry all the time or crying?”
Mason nodded no.
“Me neither! that’s why I need to do this, it won’t be for long I promise you and I will speak to you every night on the phone”
“You said that last time, it lasted a week”
“I give you my word this time” Jess promised
Mason got up and wrapped his arms around his sister before walking upstairs to his room.
“What about performances?” Jace asked
“Least of my worries dude, Kelly will sort everything” Jess said