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    Story written on April 18, 2005 by pseud.
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    Tina processes her afternoon. (Spoilers for S2, Episode 9.)

    “*****!”

    So unlike anything with Helena. How could Tina ever think that Helena would compare to Bette Porter? What was there with Helena besides the *****? Not that the ***** was bad. In many ways it was different, exciting.

    But was it too exciting? Was it something that Helena could only do when some risk factor was involved?

    And taking the lead with Bette. “So ***** hot!” Would Helena let herself be pleased? So far, things had yet to be in any way mutual. Helena was always the one driving, always the one in control.

    “*****!”

    When she had ended things with Eric, Tina had never felt the urge to return to him, never felt the urge to sleep with him. She had Bette, and Bette was everything.

    Now, she didn’t have Bette, but ***** if she didn’t want Bette. All those times seeing Bette when she was mad, it was easy to remind herself why she couldn’t reach out and kiss Bette, why she couldn’t allow herself to touch Bette.

    Now, now when the pain was fading. Bette was still there. Still a part of the baby’s life, through Tina’s own invitation.

    And, damn! “She is so ***** hot!”

    Tina knew that no matter how much she tried to deny this fact, to herself or to anyone else, the words rang hollow. There was no way she could convince another person that Bette Porter was not hot.

    Even worse, she couldn’t convince another person that she didn’t still love Bette Porter. Luckily for Tina, this was a question that Helena never asked. Tina knew she wouldn’t be able to lie. Even if her words were able to make the sound, the rest of her body would give away her intense love and need of Bette Porter.

    “*****!”

    So what was Tina to do with this knowledge? She had Helena, who seemed willing to give as much as Tina wanted to take, as long as it was under Helena’s terms. So far, those terms had been far from onerous, and Tina had gladly accepted the services offered.

    But now, now there was more of Bette in her life. “*****!”

    Would this happen again? And which thought was worse? The fact that it would? Or the fact that it wouldn’t?

    Tina sat down again, this time on the couch.

    Helena would be over soon. She had to collect herself. She had to wipe the knowledge of Bette Porter from her mind, just as she’d washed the woman’s scent from her body.

    “I fucked Bette Porter.” Tina mulled over that thought one more time. It was her primary thought since Bette left her apartment.

    Secure in that knowledge, its limits and its possibilities, Tina smiled.

    “*****!”

    (the end)

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    2. Great story Pseud. Is it just me or did everyone see the longing in Beth’s face. I could just cry. Her facial features were so expressive. I could feel how much she wanted to preserve that moment with Tina. Oh and Tina, how could she try to dismiss what just happened with a simple “We are doing good — don’t let this change us” bullshit. Anyway I’m ranting — probably should save it for one of the TLW discussions. That’s for the story. I made me feel alittle better thinking, maybe, just maybe Tina wanted Bette as much as before (even with the “Maleficent Dreammaker” Helena at her heels.)

    7. Thank you all for the kind words. I contemplated doing a companion piece for Bette, but decided not to for two reasons. First, there was the Foxworthy bit, which addressed things actually in the show.
      Second, I’ve just read skipton’s “No Knowing” and feel that my skills are not needed in this department since it’s been addressed so well already. (Plus, skipton clearly knows more vocabulary words than I, given my singular reliance on one word. I was in a mood and I went with it.)

    9. You know Tina so well. These are definitely the thoughts that went through her head. Makes you wonder if she was using aggressive lust to hide what else went on in that apartment earlier in the day. Great story.

    12. oh, oops.. i got ahead of myself.. i also wanted to say that it’s impressive that you were able to channel your emotions into something so coherent and well-written lol especially after such a *FUCK*ed up episode :D love your writing

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