Remember earlier when I was in conversation with myself and I said I was becoming complacent. Well I was. Ive learnt a lot about cocaine addiction since Ive been in here. Do you want to know what Ive learnt? Well theres one thing you have to remember thats for sure. And that is addiction is a progressive disease. No matter whether you stop or not it will ravage you physically as well as mentally. You think when you stop completely you no longer have the disease, well think again youll always have it. You will always be a drug addict! You might not care about the damage youre doing to yourself, you probably never even thought you were doing any damage, but believe me its there, the damage has already been done the first time you started taking it. Taking drugs is a mugs game and you will regret doing it in the long run. Regret is a desperate emotion and it will eat away at you relentlessly, trust me I know.

When you start putting drugs in to your body, that as well as your brain gets used to the chemicals, your feeding it. They come to depend on them, whether it be for having a good time, to relax, to feel better about yourself, to deal with stressful situations, no matter what, if you look for a drug to help function, in the end you will depend on that drug just to get you through the day, you will need no more excuses.

Its true drugs can make you feel good, dont let anyone tell you any different, they can make you feel better than you could ever imagine. The desire to feel that way will overcome you, you will want to feel it again and again, and you wont see it at first, as a physical need, because you want to believe that you have the intellect to stop at anytime, and after all, you are only having a little fun, however you want lie to yourself, you are going to want to satisfy this feeling again and again. It will not go away.

Did you know that every individual has different trigger mechanisms and combination locks to the doors in their brain? Well they do. And when you start to do drugs you wont notice at first the triggers and the combination sequence that your brain has stored.