So when your on your way to your first high, your first buzz and your feeling better than you could ever hope, you open the first door. You go through that door, and that door closes behind you, so you go through another one, and another and so on, and all the combination locks change, all the numbers have been altered. It may be only a few digits, but theyve changed. By the time you are coming down from your high and you need to retrace your steps youll find you cant. You cant go back the same way you came in, you have to go through another door, and another one that you no longer recognise, because thats the only one your combination now unlocks. You will get back though, so theres no need to worry, and you will feel like exactly the same person you were before. Only theres just one problem. You are not, the same person you were before, you, have been altered. The wiring in your brain has been tempered with and it has been changed forever. If you continue along this path the more damage you will do, and if you trigger the wrong wire, then watch out, because you could cause a painful short circuit. You could not only kill yourself, you could kill someone else too.

Its my third day in here and Im starting to get a little irritated, a little anxious, Ive got too much time on my hands. I go over to the Tv lounge, hoping that by watching a bit of television it will occupy my mind and chase away the demons that are beginning to accumulate in my head. Will this feeling ever go away? Will it ever end?

Mary is sitting there.

Shes the only person in the room, the Tv is on but there is no sound and she is not really watching shes just staring at the screen.

Hello Tina.

You can see by her face that Mary is dying. Her face is grey and her eyes are huge and sunken, you can see the fear reflecting in them.

She turns and looks at me straight in the eyes.

I cant do this Tina. Im too old, Ive got no fight left in me.