I couldn’t sleep very well that night, all I could think
about was what she said “you’re a real friend Shane”. What if she doesn’t want
thing’s to change. But she had a crush on me. I mean… she’s got to have some
of those feelings still inside of her. Right? All this thinking is giving me a
headache. I look at the clock hanging on the wall in front of me… it’s 3.40 am. Suddenly I feel dry in my throat. I
got up and went to the kitchen to get some water. I went pass Alice‘s
room and stop. Something is making me not move. I went close to her door, I
could hear something… I put my hand on the door making it to push forward.
She didn’t close her door properly. *****.
She turned on her bed lamp. I could see her wiping her tears away.

“Hey…”  I said. I don’t
know what else to say. “Hey… uhm… how come you’re up?” she say to me
pretending like I don’t know that she’s been crying. “Oh… uhm… I just
needed some water… then I heard something in your room.” I’m standing at her
door. Arms crossed.Waiting for a reply. 
“Oh okay…”  I can’t stand it
anymore. I need to hold her in my arms and say everything is going to be
alright. I walked to her side of the bed. She looks up at me and I can see
tears forming in her eyes.  I sat down on
her bed and hug her and she did the same. I could tell she’s very upset by this
whole ‘Gabby’ thing. I remember about two weeks ago… we all had brunch
together and she was so full of joy.

I was happy for her. Everyday I try and hide away my
feelings for her hoping that it will just go away nevertheless everyday my feelings
for her just kept growing.

“Sssshhhh… its okay” I try and comfort her. I could feel
wetness on my shoulders from her the tears she shed. “I’m… I’m so stupid…
how could I ever… ever… possibly having thought that she will love me…” I
have no answer for that. “I wish I have the answer for that Al…”

We both broke our hug. She’s looking down trying to hide her
tears away. I lift her chin up and wipe her tears away. “Alice…
don’t cry… she’s not worth your tears…” I hate seeing her cry like this…
I feel like I’m useless. I’m suddenly so angry at my self.  Feel like it’s my fault that she’s crying.
“Oh Shane…” Her hand caresses my cheek. I gulp. She is still tearful.
“Ssshhhh… its okay babe…” Did I just call her babe?