So I’m here at the beach with alcohol in my system, not to mention the pills Cherie gave me…. I really can’t move…. Or talk….Just think.

……The Beach… there is something in the beach that makes you think about your mistakes. About life on its own. About love……. I do know I love Carmen…. I know…. That’s why I cant merry her…. Because sooner or later I will hurt her, and I don’t want to do that. I want to make her happy…. That’s what I want. I know I can’t be what she wants me to be. I just can’t……I know me and my father are not the same… but he did made me realized that you can’t change what you are… sooner or later the truth comes out………………………………………………………

When did the sky turned white?… it was night minutes ago… I didn’t see the sun come out… haha shit this is funny….. its hard for me to stand up… but I do… I guess I’m not THAT drunk yet….Wait no, I AM drunk cause I can’t see the beach anywhere… it was in front of me!!! Hahaha, man I’m so fucked up…..then everything turns white… I can’t see nothing… everything is white…Then I see a bright light in front… like really bright… I can barely open my eyes because of it… shit… am I dead?… fuck I am dead

“No your not”

Fuck… um…. Who the fuck was that!?!!?

“Haha don’t be scared Shane”

“Who the fuck are you?… and how can you read my thoughts?”  Man.. I still can’t see anything but the bright light

“You can call me Cliff. Yes I can read your thoughts and for the bright light thing… here is this better?”

Yea better… I can see a man in front… can’t see his face…still don’t know what’s going on.

“Well you can’t see my face cause I don’t have one and there is nothing going on”

“Would you stop that!!!.. get out of my mind!! And what do you mean there is nothing going on?… am I dead… are you god?”

“hahaha No I’m not god… sorry for getting in your head, but I cant help it… and there IS nothing going on… we are in nowhere”