“I just don’t understand Ashley” she said starting to cry then I went to hold her because I hated seeing her like this “don’t…don’t touch me”

“Spencer please…”

“if you want to hold someone maybe you should go to your little groupie” she snapped at me

“she’s on tour for the next year Spencer…she’s not even here”

“oh…so that makes it all better?” she snapped

“no…no Spencer that doesn’t make it all better…” I told her “…don’t you see I’m giving this everything I have? I left the office so I could be at home more…so I can be with you and the girls to try and make this family work…” I started then she cut me off

“…listen to yourself Ashley” she started “…all you do is work, you live and breath your work…you shouldn’t have to give everything you have to make a family work…the ability that a family has to be whole and loving should be unconditional” she said

“Spencer…please just listen to me…” I pleaded “…I made a mistake, I realize that now and I should have been mature enough to realize it before it all happened…I told myself when my dad died all those years ago that I would never be like him when it came to this industry, but I was wrong…I can’t believe I was wrong, but I was…Spencer we took vows and I know that I broke some of mine and I will hate myself more and more each day for that because you’re the only person I’ve ever wanted to love…Spencer you were my first love and my forever…I realize I need to make up for a lot…with you and with the girls, but please even if you don’t want it just let me try…”

“why would I let you try something if I don’t want to hear it?” she asked me then my heart sank “…I’ve been trying all these years to change who you are…and I knew that when I married you, I knew you were obsessed with work and with the label but I thought I could change that and for a while I thought I did, but now I realize I was stupid to try and change the person you really are…”