"…I can’t." She whispered it so softly that I almost missed it, but I caught it, so did my heart, and it shut down.

"Okay…okay," I tried to find the words, "Look I gotta go, I’ll see you tomorrow."

"No, Ash-" I hung up the phone. Not even the most tempting of offers could have kept me on that line, rejection is something I don’t take kindly to, well I guess no one really does. But I don’t usually love, I’ve only ever loved two girls in my life, one of them was dead and the other didn’t want me. I did what I knew how to do…

"Hey, Alex? Yah it’s me….can I come over?"

"Oh my God, harder" She begged, she had one leg over my shoulder, the other bent to the side and my three fingers were buried in her, fingering her g-spot. This was nice, this was numbing.

"I love you Alex, come for me" I demanded, she moaned those damn moans…those moans that sounded nothing like Spencer. So I kissed her, and she kissed me back…kissed me in the way Spencer didn’t. So I pulled away and looked at her and she looked up at me, mouth open, breathing heavily…Spencer wasn’t like that. So I closed my eyes…that’s where I found Spencer.

"Fuck, I’m so close," she told me, I wanted to say ‘stop, you don’t sound like her’ but instead I nodded and sucked on her neck. Where Spencer would have giggled, Alex moaned.

"Ash!" She moaned as she came, Spencer never did that. Spencer would look at me, she would breathe so beautifully. Fuck her, who needs beautiful anyways?

 I pulled out of Alex and layed beside her, "So what was this all about?" She asked me, what the hell do you think? I’m using you…God.

"Nothing babe, just missed you." I smiled and kissed her softly, she smiled back. I should have never loved, I should have never been with Spencer…Bianca, oh God Bianca.

"Look I gotta go, I’ll see you next week." I got out of the bed and put my clothes back on quickly. Bianca was running through my mind, my Bianca…Damnit.

"Are you coming over tomorrow?" She asked, she pulled the blankets over her and yawned.