Her smile alone taught me that you can find someone out there that can make you laugh when you yourself don’t even want to smile. The only mistake I had made was that I assumed my first love would be my forever love. So, where am I now? I’m venturing to a whole new world where no one knows my name…and I can start over. I wont be that popular girl anymore…now I can just be Ashley. That may be exactly what I need, so then I can meet new people without the repercussions of them knowing who I was in high school.

            If there’s one thing I am leaving for New York knowing, it’s that I will always miss that girl. I’ll miss her voice late at night, and I’ll miss waking up next to her. Then again maybe one day we’ll meet again, new people but somehow still the same for the better. Everyone needs to change, and I think leaving may the best for both of us. There will always be a place in my heart that aches at the thought of those blue eyes and that addicting smile that had crushed me. Then again, I’m sure I’ll spread a smile when I think about waking up next to her all those nights.

            I made a mistake this year. I ended up hoping to find someone to be with forever, but the truth is…forever is a long time, so what do I want now? I want someone I love to be next to me when all my dreams come true, because that’s what we remember in the long run. Maybe we’ll run into each other someday…whether it is in New York or wherever she lands.

Always & Forever

-Ashley

**************************

Not a night has gone by in the past four months when I haven’t read that letter she left in my mail box the morning she left for New York. I refuse to believe I have it memorized, because that’s my only excuse for being able to look at her and writing, being able to picture her writing it.

“hey cutie…” Nicole said coming into my room then I put the letter under my pillow