Chapter 6 Will it go on?BPOV

I lied there on the floor listening to his pleading, almost desperate, calls for me to open the door. I almost did let him in once i began to get up and go to the door then i just started yelling at myself. I was such a apprehensive nervous reck. I had to be better than this, i had to show everyone i was better than this, that everytime his name is said out loud that i am not in some dark corner bawling my eyes out.
Another hour went by and Kasey had left. Well thank good he did, he would have ran away if he would have saw me like this. He probably doesn't even know why
I was dreading going to school tommorrow, i was kinda in fear to what he might say to me or if he would cause a big sence in front of everyone. At that moment i decided i would play hooky tommorrow. I'll just tell Charlie that i wasn't feeling well. Maybe even fake a sence tommorrow morning.
I began thinking to myself that i was sad, and pretty messed up for planning to miss school for a guy. Maybe even i could ask to go vistit Reene, i haven't seen her in so long, i miss my mom. Well fer sure i will skip tommorrow and then talk to Charlie and Reene anout vistiting.
The next morning i woke up late, to see Charlie almost out the door, i called "Dad?Are you still here?" In a very rested and scratchy voice. "Oh Bells? Hunny, how are you feeling? You don't look so good."Charlie said in a worry thick voice. "Yeah i just don't feel very well, i think i am going to stay home today, is that okay?" I asked hoping it would be alright, and him not seeing threw me. "Do you want me to stay home with you? I can call in?" Charlie said offering.
"No dad il'll be fine, i don't want you to catch anything". No said hurring quickly to make this work.
"Uhh sure okay Bells, call me if you have any problems." He spoke with a kind of stern voice. "Bye dad have a good day.I'll be fine." Hurry,hurry, i thought to myself. "Yeah ,Bells you too." He spoke walking out the door.
Thank you, i got out of it. I ran upstairs feeling fine, and getting dressed in something comfortable.
Next thing i heard i could not believe. i heard a car, a very fast and speeding car stop to screech outside my house. I ran to my bedroom window, looking, scearching. What i found was , Kasey steping out of his Mustang, wearing a dark blue fannel with black matching the patteren, then a white tank top showing his muscular chest, he had the fannel sleves up to the top of his forearms showing his ripped arms of muscle. Then wearing a white tank top fitting him perfectly,than to finish it out he was wearing light blue jeans. I all can i could do was stare, he look so hot!
But why was he here? Can't he see that i am nothing special. He walked up to the door, i made way down stirs by then listening for him, he reached the door i could hear his heavy sigh. I wonder if this was hard for him.
He did a swift but quite knock at the door, my heart began to jump out my chest.
In the three seconds that past as he knocked, i opened the door. Wow how could i do that.
As i opened door i kinda startled him, this made me chuckle just a tiny bit.
"Uhh Hi." He said glad that i opened the door." Umm hey" I said shyly.