The question was asked dejectedly, her voice quiet and tired as she stared at the floor. She wasn’t good enough to sleep with Spencer. The blonde must have finally realized how filthy she was, smelled the guy on her, tasted him on her breath- she wanted to cry, curl up in a ball and close her eyes, never opening them again. The ecstasy did little to make her feel good. Did nothing to clean how dirty she felt.

“Don’t you want me?” She murmured more to herself than to Spencer, losing herself in her thoughts, disappearing from the room. A soft touch to the face and she flinched stumbling back into the door. Her hand moved covering the hidden bruise on her side, the dull pain taking her back to the bathroom stall. His hands gripped her too tightly there as she awkwardly rode him on the toilet seat. She was thankful for the condom he wore without any complaints. He must have thought she was full of STDs by the way he quickly slipped it on. Not that it mattered, he ate her out and her body betrayed her by liking it, giving him more and more…

Ashley slid down the door until she was seated on the floor, staring blankly at the same spot on the carpet. She could still feel his hands on her, remember every flick of his tongue, the smell of the alcohol on his breath- why didn’t she hit the tree? He would be there forever in her mind and she would see his face whenever she fell asleep and wake up tormented by it- She should have hit the tree and erased him forever from her mind.

A warm body settled next to hers on the floor and she flinched a second time feeling an arm brush against her. She didn’t want to sleep with anymore men. There was enough money maybe she could tell Glen to reschedule because she was too tired to fuck anyone else- “Get the fuck away from me!” She snapped attempting to move away, far far away where no one could touch her tainted skin. His moans filled her head again, his ecstasy soon becoming hers, she didn’t feel it now. Nothing felt good. Not even the soothing words being spoken to her as someone’ else’s arms succeeded in capturing her small frame holding her tight against a strong body. Spencer. The tears came rushing down again. “No! Please just let me go, you don’t want me, please! Just let me go.” Her face fell against the other girls shoulder as she held the blond with all her might. “God, Spence, just kill me. I don’t want to be here anymore, just fucking kill me!”