"How?" she peers at me questioningly.

"Because.." my mouth is so ***** dry. This wasn’t a good idea.” I know, because…because..I..I s-sent them t-to you." Did she even here that or not?

I stand here gripping the desk my mind telling me to run, but my body refusing to obey. I need to get out of here, before it sinks in to her what I said. Oh why did I think I could do this? Huh? Cordelia is right beside me. How did she get over here without me noticing?

I feel her hand touch my shoulder, but I can’t look at her. I just can’t take the rejection, “Faith?"

"Yeah?" did I just squeak?

"Tear drops? These tear drops?" she questions as if to ask how I knew.

My mouth is moving. I don’t remember giving it permission to do that," I f-followed you and saw you l-looking at them…I..I knew you w-wanted them and I w-wanted you to have them…they are the tears I can’t shed. I g-give them to you…" did I just say that?!

"Why?" she whispers in my ear.

"I just wanted you to b-be safe..I won’t f-follow you again. I’m sorry." I duck my head toward my chest.

"No..not what I meant. Why give me your tears?" she whispers gently.

"I..I don’t have anything else to give you, but my tears, my soul,…I wanted you to know you could have it all." I stammer.

"Why?" will she ever stop? I can’t tell her. She will just hate me, “Why?"

"I..Damn it. ‘C’ It’s so hard.." I feel my body shaking. Damn traitor, "I..I l-love you….I love you, Cordelia." I make myself turn from her. I may not be able to make my body obey me and run, but I can at least not look at her.

"I have been waiting to know why you followed me all the time. I thought I knew, but…" her voice breaks into crying.

"I’m sorry." I made her cry again. I’m so ***** useless, "I’ll leave okay?"

"No. You can’t leave." she is stronger than I thought. She turns me to face her, " I was just waiting for you, Faith. I love you. I don’t want your tears, but I want your love."

"You… you what?" No ***** way..she loves me?! ME?!

"I love you. Now, are you going to kiss me or…"

Cordelia’s lips on mine are more than I can even describe. Velvet, soft silk, hunger…she tastes so sweet as she opens her lips for me to taste her. How did I ever get so ***** lucky?! It has to be luck I certainly don’t deserve her. I could hold her lips to mine for eternity, but I better let her breathe.

"OH my…" she gasps. I can feel her breath on my face. My heart is hammering in my chest. I want to hold her longer. Will she let me?

"I..was that okay?" since when do I doubt myself? Since I want to be perfect for her. I can’t be, but I can try.

"Okay?…it was ***** awe inspiring. I…mmmm..you taste spicy," she licks her lips.

"Oh…I.." I can feel myself blushing.

"Faith, I..thank you for the earrings. But you can’t.."

"They are yours..I saved up..who else do I have to spend my money on?" I am still blushing. Damn her for being able to this to me.

"Will you come home with me so I can thank you properly?" she leans up purring in my ear.

"I..***** yeah..if your sure?" I can tell I am smiling. My face hurts.

"I have been waiting for you, baby. Show me the way to your soul so I can keep it safe."

"It’s all yours. It really is you just didn’t know it, but now you do."

The end