"Oh."  She leans toward me some noticing the sadness in my voice. 

"Spencer what is it?"  I look into her eyes and instead of answering her verbally I grab her shirt, pulling her to me.  I kiss her.  I can’t believe I am kissing her.  I start to feel her kissing me back some before she pulls her mouth and body away from me.  I wanted to follow, but I’m not able to.

"Spencer we can’t do this."  She says while her back is to me.

"Why not, I…well I am really starting to like you."  I ask her back wishing she would turn around.  She spins around,

"Because you just got out of your first serious relationship with a girl you love.  Not only that I am your physical therapist and relationships are a big no no.  There is also an age difference and it just isn’t going to happen."

"Tell me you didn’t enjoy that kiss."  I dare her.

"It doesn’t matter what I feel Spencer this is not going to happen.  I have a bad past and you are still in love with Ashley."  She pushes,

"No I am not."  I shout not knowing who I am trying to convince.  She just looks at me sadly, "Alright maybe I am still in love with her, but she hurt me so badly I don’t think I can ever get over it."  She walks back towards me,

"I know it feels like that now, but it will get better and jumping into any kind of relationship right now will not help."  I hear what she is saying, but I just don’t want to listen.  "Please Spencer, let’s just be friends.  I don’t want this to get in the way of that or me helping you walk again."  She pleads and I just can’t say no.

"Alright.  We will just be friends.  Now let’s start my session woman."  She laughs and goes to get her bag. 

After the session is over, she fixes me a sandwich.  Then she starts to set up the things in my room with me pointing where I want things to go.  She says I need to get Glen to paint the room and I decide that is a great idea.