Ok Ash, relax. How hard could this be, right? I mean, picking her up, driving to our spot, and just talking. Oh fuck, who am I kidding? This is going to be hell. What if she doesn’t want to get back together with me? What if she’s actually leaving to go back to Ohio? Oh no Ash, keep it together. I got to her driveway and text her to come outside. As she was coming outside, I saw her smile at me. Oh fuck. She’s so gorgeous. Ok, don’t do anything drastic now, Ashley. Keep it PG. or PG-13. “Hey Ash, are you ready to go?” So gorgeous. “Huh? Oh right, driving, me, beach… got it.” “Are you sure you should be driving? You look like you’re going to be sick at any minute.” “I’m fine, really I am.”

Wow, when they say ‘silence is golden’ they are so wrong. Silence is so not golden; it’s black, and nerve wracking. Ugh! Need to break the silence now! Music, good, let’s see, what CD’s do I have in here. And PLAY.

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one

“FUCK!” Damn I said that out loud! “Jesus Ashley! Are you trying to give me a heart attack!?!” “Sorry. It’s just, this song. You do know what it is right?” “Um, yeah, I do. I still really like this song. Just because we might have changed, doesn’t mean our feelings completely have. This was our favorite song Ash. It’s still my favorite song.” Well, what on earth could I say to that? Oh yeah, absolutely nothing. Of course I still felt the same way. I always will.

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

“Spencer, I’m sorry I scared you. And my feelings haven’t changed. I just… wasn’t expecting our song to come on the radio before we talked all our shit out. You know what I mean?” I seriously need to stop saying that, I’m not some hormonal teenage boy trying to get into her pants. Hell, I’m not even trying to get into her pants and I am a hormonal girl who is in love. Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck a duck. Haha. “So you’re ok with the song playing then, because I don’t really want to change it.” “I’m fine with it Ash. Come on, the beach awaits us.” There’s that smile I love so much. Back to the song though, she loves it when I sing, especially if it’s our song that I’m singing.