“So…” “So…I want to start off with Aiden.” FUCK!!!! Why do we have to talk about him? “What do you want to know Spencer?” “If he were still alive, would you seriously be here with me right now, trying to work out all of this?” “Of course not. Spencer, I love you with all my heart. When we got together, I gave you my heart. That’s not something I normally do, wait no, that’s something I have never done.” “Then why did you hesitate when I told you to choose?” “I only hesitated because I was trying to think of the words to say that would keep us together, Aiden as my friend, and Kyla not hating my guts. But before I could say anything, I was being thrown to the ground and bullets were flying everywhere.” She’s taking in my answer… Come on Ash, if you can just stick to the truth, you might have her back. “Ok. I believe you. Now, do you think we can talk about us? Past, present, and future us?” “Future us huh? Yeah, I think I can talk about us.”

“Well, you told me you still love me, so I can’t ask that question. If we were to get back together, what would your intentions be?” “Oh God, Spence used a big word! Sorry. Um, honestly, I would want us to take it slower this time. I mean, last time, when you gave me the ultimatum, I told you I wanted you, and right away we slept together. Not that I didn’t enjoy it or anything, because I swear I did, it’s just, I kind of felt that the second we did that, everything was going to turn into hell, and it did. So if we do get back together, I want to take our time.” Wow, she looks pleased with my answer. “Can I ask you a question or two now?” “Uh, sure, I guess if you want to.” This is going to be interesting.

“Do you still love me?” She looks shocked at my question, I already know the answer, but I really need to hear her say it. “Of course I do Ash.” “Say it, please.” “I still love you Ashley Davies.” God, I am so whipped! “Next question, do you agree with everything that I said about ‘future us’?” “Of course I do. Actually, it’s like you can read my mind, because that’s what I was thinking too.” “Great minds do think alike Spencer.” She’s just smiling at me now. But I think I need to ask her one more question… “Spencer? Um, will… will you… Will you be my girlfriend again?” Please say yes, please say yes, please say-. “Yes Ashley, I will. One condition though.” “Anything, as long as I get to hold you and call you mine again!” “Stop blaming yourself for the shooting.” “WHAT!? Who told you I blame myself?” SHIT SHIT SHIT! “No one, but I can see it in your eyes. You wish you could’ve pushed me out of the way and gotten shot. I know you Ashley, and I know how you think. It wasn’t your fault though. You weren’t the one holding the gun. You didn’t pull the trigger.”

She does have a point there. “I know Spencer. I just… I can’t it. I thought you were dead when I saw you fall. I tried to get to you faster, but Aiden was dying in my arms and I couldn’t get him off of me. Then I saw you, and told Kyla to take care of Aiden. As soon as I got to you, I felt all this guilt rushing into me. I felt horrible. If Aiden didn’t pull me to him, I would’ve been able to save you. And I would’ve gotten shot.” I started to cry and she held me close. I can’t believe she can get me to open up like this. I almost never cry. “Ash, it’s ok. And it was never your fault. Or Aiden’s for that matter.” “Spencer, why haven’t you talked about Clay at all?” Wrong question Ashley! VERY WRONG QUESTION!