The two of them sat across from each other at starbucks, at the table in the back, inhaling their fresh coffee resting between them. It was getting harder and harder to focus on their individual lives. They spent most of their thoughts trying to integrate the other in their daily. The cravings for one another were definately conquering their existence.
Dana was still sort of with Tonya – yet she wasnt sure why. And Alice was declining every date offered. The both of them wanted the other – and perhaps it just made too much sense to just hook up. Plus, that would take away from the intensity.
But god. They were definitely brinking on breaking point.
Just like their conversation weeks before, the topic of difficulty in terms of their rules of unattraction was brought to the table.
I admit it, Alice near whispered, Its just getting harder.
You meanfighting the urges Dana swallowed hard, To leap across tables – or slam against –
I just Alice looked directly into Danas pool of blue eyes, piercing her own right to her belly, want to violate our ridiculous rules
You do? Dana grinned. It was evident both of them were struggling with them. Neither was afraid of this situation being unbalanced – they often tested each other – realizing the great affects they had on one another.
I Alice was practically whispering, and as she spoke Dana felt the warmth envelop her entire being, I want to just drag you off sometimes
And let me have my way with you, Dana whispered, watching Alice adjust herself in her seat as she licked her lips.
Like yesterday after practice, Dana crossed her legs – clenching herself together as Alice continued to speak, I wanted to take you to the showers
Al, when you were wearing that top – which is against the rules, by the way –
***** the rules.
I just wanted to –
I think its time we evoke
AgreedViolated. want to come –
Lets go.
They abandoned their untouched coffees, moist and wanting, made their way over to Alices apartment.
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What are you doing here? Tina crossed her arms, after opening the door – revealing Bette.
I wanted to see you, Bette began, T, I just – I think we need to fix this.
If I had the power, I wouldnt have let any of this happen to begin with. You cant just erase things, yknow? Tina shook her head as she began to turn away.
Can I come in? Watching her nod, Bette followed her inside.
I fucked up, Bette sighed, I know I did. But what do you want from me, T? You know I love you. You know youre all that matters – how much longer do I need to hurt until were equal?
Its not about retribution, Bette. The trust is gone. Our relationship is damaged – you can just put a bandaid on this situation and pretend its all better. It doesnt work like that. Tina felt tears begin to threaten as she sat down on the couch, looking up at Bette.
Look at you. Youre having She wanted so badly to say our, but she was careful. At this point, she had no claim on the baby, Youre doing it – you made the dream come true.
Bette, I love you. You know I love you, too – but right now thats not enough. Right now theres a lot of stuff thats going on – theres a lot we need to sort out.
I would do anything to correct this – to take all this back, yknow? T, I love you. I miss you. I need you. I just – I dont know what to do anymore. And Im crumbling – Im falling apart. Do you realize how deep youre in me? Youre my glue, T. Youre my everything. I sound cheesey, I feel cheesey – I feel dramatic – but this is it. This is me – this is me desperate. This is me, desperate for you, Tina watched the tears slide down Bettes cheeks and felt her heart constrict in her chest. She knew Bette genuinely meant everything she said – and she wanted so badly to just let this all go. But there was a part of her that ached still and needed to figure something out before theyd continue on together. Inevitably, they needed to be together. Theyd chosen each other for life. However, Bette violated the trust – damaged their relationship – and it wasnt that easy to just forget something so great in impact.
The issue isnt whether or not we love each other – its not even –
What can I do? Bette cried.
I think Tina took a breath, I think I just need time. I need to heal. I need time. I need you to respect that.
I want to try for you – but its getting harder, T. Its just getting so hard, Bette fell down to her knees so she was directly in front of Tina, I just miss you too ***** much.
I miss you too, yknow? This isnt easy for me neither. Tina reached out and pulled Bette in for an awkward embrace. It wasnt only awkward because of all the emotions it was trying to convey – it was hard because of all the unexpected emotions that began to erupt.
I have absolutely no control, Bette sobbed into Tinas shoulder, I feel like a mess
Tina kissed Bette on the forehead, Listen, youre still my mess – we just need to

TO be continued