Tina woke up feeling tired. They came back almost at dawn and they even talked a bit more before falling to sleep.
She could feel Alice sleeping at her side, snoring lightly.
Tina looked at her friend and smiled, it felt so right to know she had friends like her.
It was past noon, she was feeling hungry and thirsty so she walked to the kitchen already thinking about what to order. She remembered how much Alice loved Mexican food so taking the phone from the table she made an order.

After filling a glass with orange juice she walked to her desk. She turned her computer on and not thinking about what she was doing she decided to check her emails.
The first thing she saw was that there were three emails from Bette from last night. It scared the ***** out of her but after her talk with Alice last night she knew she had to read them.



Date: Sat 1 May 2004 017:09:22 -0700
Subject: youus
From: bette
T
Ok, forget my last email. Am sorry okits just that sometimes its too much for me




Tina watched the time Bette wrote the email and then checked her previous one. She realized that she should be reading them in the proper order so she went back to the inbox and opened the first one.



Date: Fri 30 May 2004 23:37:22 -0700
Subject: me
From: bette
You know, I wish you were here. I want so much to hit you.to touch you.. You know what I meanI cant stand not talking with youam furiouswith myselfand with you tmaybe is not fair, or rightbut I am
What are we doing?
Is there anything left for us?
Is there any us?
Who are you? am sure I have no idea who I am anymore
Its justsometimes it feels hopeless



Tina was crying, tears were running down her cheeksshe was not feeling them she just opened the next email.



Date: Sat1 May 2004 01:29:22 -0700
Subject: youus
From: bette
T,
Ok, forget my last email. Am sorry okits just that sometimes its too much for me
I dont know what I want to say. As many times during the month we have been apart I feel the need to talk with you.
How could explain to you what I felt today when I finally saw you.?
Mg Tinamt heart jumped and my body shiveredI felt so much love for youI wanted to touch you, to talk with you, to feel you closebut then I saw the look in your eyesIt scared me T.
Did I do that to you?
Its because of me that you looked so beautiful?
T, you looked so beautiful, you ARE so beautiful.
It scared me that you looked so well, it scared me thinking that when you were with me you didnt look so well. What have I done to you?
Are you better without me?
Just writing that makes me dizzy, dont want to even imagine that youd be, that you are I know I know we have to try to talk I know you dont want to talk or see meI saw it in your eyes tonightbut then againI need to knowI need to find out



Tina could not believe that was it. Then she remembered there was another email from Bette. She closed that one and went to open the last one.



Date: Sat1 May 2004 02:07:22 -0700
Subject: falling in love again
From: bette
T, here I am again. I cant stop thinking about you. The moment I finished my last email I put your geeky cd on. I know, I never told you and I teased you about it but now I love it. Life is so strange, suddenly all those songs mean so much more. Call it timing, or call it just lifeI just heard Burt Bacharach& Elvis Costello I will never fall in love again. I know you love that song and listening to it was like having you at my side, I wanted so much to hold you that I started crying again but then you know what song comes after that one its Caetano Velosos Cucurrucucu Palomathat only made me realized what we had.
Do you remembered when your sister told us what the song was about? God T, is so beautifulis one of the most beautiful songs I know or can think about. And is all about you, it about love, and lost, and pain but its about hope and life too. As I am listening to it right now, it makes me think about that night. Do you remember? , that night
971128 was the most memorable night of my life. You know it right, you know how much that night means to me. I remember every second of it, every sigh, every smile, every touch, every tear and every moan. I remembered how scare you were, how sweet you looked, how ***** you were. Mg TI have never ever wanted anyone as much as I wanted you that night. You gave me the most precious gift T, you trusted me. I saw it in you eyes and that only made it even better.
I remember the look in you eyes as I took your t shirt off. How you made me feel, how touching your belly felt, how scare I was to touch you, how much my hands were trembling under your gaze. But then you smiled. You took my hands in yours and you kissed me. I felt so weak, so lost in you. You took my shirt away, Id see you trembling but there was so much tender in those fingers, the way you unzipped my jeansMg T it was so sexyit was ***** because I was looking at you in the eyes, you never looked away from me and then you gave me that ***** smile of yours. I had to kiss you and is what I did, then I knew I needed to touch you more, needed to feel your skin against mine, needed to feel your hands in me.

Ok, I know I said I remember everything about that night, well, I cant remember how we get on the bed I just see us there, naked. I stared at you, mg you were so beautiful, and I know you stared at me, your eyes on me was so exciting, Id feel them, it was burning my skin, I know I blushed, I felt so weak under you eyes all I wanted was for you to want me and then you moved closer. You looked at my ..well you know you put your hand on my collar bone and you caressed it. It was so *****, so sweet, you kissed me there, at first it was sweet but then well I get that you were not as lost or shy as you thought you were. Your kisses became much more intense and as you started moving your hands around my body I felt lost in yours. I can remember your arms, so soft and long, your flat belly so warm and your breast. You know you know what I think about them. I dont think you have any doubt how I feel about them. You were moving on me, I didnt have to say anything, you were so wrong about it all mg T you knew so well what you had to do it was just perfect, you knew right away the spots that could move me, you made me so complete. You found the road to all the right places without any help, you just worked your way there, taking your time, enjoying the ride. Mg T, just thinking about it all its arousing me. And all the time you were whispering to me. Saying the right things. .. I dont think we have made love as that night. I know we have had more passionate nights, wilder ones but I dont think any of them has been as special as that first time. ..

Sorry T, I went to the kitchen, needed a coke, I thought about having a glass of wineall that memory trip made me thirsty but then I thought that the wine will be there for us to drink it together as am sure we will be there again T. am not giving up on us, on you, not even on me.
Am just going to leave now thinking about that night. Thinking about your face afterwards. The look on your face as I held you in my arms. You finally fall asleep, it was almost dawn, I remember seeing the sun rise. I remember, still can feel it, having your arms around me, your head on my chest, your arm on my belly. It was so right T, it felt so well. I can tell you that no one has ever made me as happy as I was at that moment, that night. I just hope that all that is as sweet to you as it is to me.
Believe me when I say this T.. I love you with all my heart and will prove it to you.



Tina looked at the screen for almost half an hour after she finished reading that last email. Then , slowly, she opened the reply box and there she she wrote.


Date: Sat1 May 2004 015:07:22 -0700
Subject:re- falling in love again
From: tina
Baby, I am here.
Im listening, Im reading
I was there too.
I still can feel your lips on my face, kissing away my tears that night.
I know I love you but
Just remember that song Wendie gave us, that song that she loves so much Yolanda by Pablo Milans.