“Don’t give me that crap Carmen! Tell me; is this it? Is this the end of us??” She asked me.

“Stop yelling at me!! I don’t know okay!! Do you think this is easy for me Shane?! Huh…” We were yelling at the top of our lungs to each other now; I got closer to her… we’re pointing fingers at each other; blaming each other when actually the both of us should be the one to blame.

“Hey… you are the one that’s leaving me okay!? I ain’t the one backing out from this…” She said; I hate how her words are so true.

“Oh god…” I covered my face with my hands. My whole body was shaking; from crying… from this situation… this was the worst moment of my life. I sat my self down on the bed.

“Please don’t do this; you don’t mean this… right? C’mon baby… stay with me; I need you… we; we can take it easy… you know; I’ll tell Smoky to lay off for a while…” She said to me while kneeling down in front of me; caressing my arms with her hands. It nearly worked.

“No…” I mumbled to her; my hands still covering my face. I put my hands down and stood up; she did the same.

“No?” She repeated. I can tell that she was tired of trying.

“No… okay? No…” I said; shaking my head; trying hard to convince my self. She took a couple of deep breaths and she looked at me with fierce eyes.

“Tell me; do you see us together in ten years time… hell; five years… can you see us together still??” She asked me.

“Shane… please…”

“Answer me! Carmen… I need to know… if you don’t; then go… just picture your self in the future; do you see me with you?”

“No…” It was the most blatant lie. I can’t believe I said it.

“That’s a lie and you know it…” She said.

“Nothing I say will satisfy you Shane! Nothing I say will satisfy my self… so please! Cut me some fucking slack okay!”