What the fuck was I thinking? What is this? I’m not in my normal sense. I’m feeling something that I’m not supposed to feel, this is wrong… what I’m feeling towards her. It shouldn’t be happening.

I can’t possibly love her… or fall in love with her. I’ll only bring her pain and misery and she doesn’t need this. She doesn’t deserve the pain that she’ll feel if she’s with me. No, she deserve all things good… and me, I’m not apart of all things good.

Yet, I’m in her bed. Staring at her while she sleeps beautifully. Again, what the fuck am I doing?

After our kiss, we both let out a laugh. For me, it was more of a nervous laugh. I didn’t know what to do or to say… all I know was I wanted to feel her lips again. I wanted her in my arms. We heard Alice screaming out to us… saying she’s going to The Planet.

8 HOURS EARLIER

She stared at me and she had her finger on my lips, tracing the outline of it. I was breathing hard and I couldn’t think. We heard Alice calling out to us, saying her goodbye. Suddenly my stomach let out the biggest growl that would make king of the jungle wince. I haven’t eaten for the day; all I had was a cup of coffee in the morning and half a pack of Marlboro’s.

She let out a laugh, laughing at me and my empty stomach… and I didn’t mind it. I didn’t mind that she was laughing at me. She covered her laugh with her hand and I couldn’t stop staring at her face. Such beauty, I thought.

“You haven’t eaten anything huh??” She asked.

“No…” I said sheepishly.

“Well… let me make you something…” She said and got up from the steps. I watched her went into the kitchen and busily start to make something. I made my way into the kitchen and stood in the middle.

“Hey… you don’t have to…” I said. I didn’t want to bother her; we should be talking about this right?