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    Before the Fall – Nine

    Story written on January 28, 2007 by Speed_Racer.
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    If you loved someone how far would you go, to get them to love you back? What if they never loved you?

    “You’re down right despondent. I hate how you let whatever Bette does affect you so much. It’s always been this way and I don’t think it’s healthy.”

    “You’re saying I’m obsessed with her?”

    “I’m saying that your moods should not be dictated by what Bette does or doesn’t do. Simply put; your world should not revolve around Bette.”

    “It does not.”

    “You dropped everything to go to Los Angeles.”

    “You said that it was fine to do that. The board was fine with it! There wasn’t a reason why I shouldn’t have gone.”

    “You moved the whole foundation back to New York after twenty-five years in Los Angeles. Because Bette didn’t love you.”

    Helena pressed her lips together and remained stonily silent. It hadn’t been because Bette didn’t love her, she thought bitterly. It had been the opposite.

    “Not going to refute it?”

    “Bette will always be a friend to me. If she were ever to need help then I would do anything for her. Because that’s what friend’s do. And moving the foundation? That was because it was a good tactical move, and admittedly I did want to start over. When I moved here it was to break myself of my…Bette addiction. And I have at last.”

    “Helena… If you really mean this then I will stand behind you no matter what. But really I can’t believe what you’re saying. It’s been going on for years and now finally it’s over? Why now? Helena–“

    “Why now? How about because I was willing to do something that was so wrong and despicable that I can’t even… Because I was going to do it. Bette doesn’t remember a thing and I was going to play this game to the fucking end. Lying to her all the way and I didn’t give a damn! What kind of person does that make me? Who would willingly lie to a person they claim to love and be happy while they did it? The answer would be a person like me! And in fact I don’t think I even love Bette. If I did I wouldn’t be so selfish! I wouldn’t want to own her heart and soul. I wouldn’t have lied to her. I would have been able to let her go when she told me over and over that there was nothing between us. I should have been able to let her go if I really loved her.”

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    1. Wow! It would be so strange having no memory of the past and then have it all come rushing back at you like that. Thanks for the update–looking forward to the next!

    2. oh my god! Oh my god! All the memories came flooding back? That’s going to be really intense. What’s going to happen? Why? How? When? Amazing, Speedy, you write stuff close to my heart. Lovely writing! Thanks for the soon update! I’m so glad to read it! It’s perfect! :D

    3. You do know that I was meaning to write that I like the friendship between everyone right? The middle part was hillarious! Then the suddenly gaining back memory part just took my breath away. hehe

    6. This was good…really good. Will Bette let everyone know that she got her memory back right away? Will she call Helena? Will Helena come back to LA? Bette can’t travel right now. More please.

    7. wow Speedy this was soo cool. i really feel for Bette getting all your memories back like that. I loved the pillow fight and how the friends all stick together.PPS

    8. Your writing is great as usual. You gave us some laughter, the dedication of friends, as well as self awareness on one’s self. You are an excellent writer and it’s a pleasure to read your stories. Thank You!

    11. Oh come on!!! You didn’t stop there!! You’ can’t stop there!!! It’s so not fair!!! I becam e addicted to this story!!! Speedy, post an update as soon as possible, please!!!!

    12. Oh come on!!! You didn’t stop there!! You’ can’t stop there!!! It’s so not fair!!! I became addicted to this story!!! Speedy, post an update as soon as possible, please!!!!

    13. I am on the edge of my seat here, i cannot believe you just stopped there!! Meanie! You are one incredible writer, truly in awe of your style, love it! Thank you, pps.

    14. oh hell i’m a tibetter cheering for bette to get her brain back and make it good with helena!!!! damn u r good…pps…i’m on the edge of my seat…..yeah, i do feel 4 Tina but she should go get her a woman who truly loves her, shes too nice to play 2nd best….

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