It’s then I get all choked up. It’s then that Dana tells me to let it out. It’s then when she says everything will be alright, everything is gonna work out in the end. She calls me baby, she coo’s in my ear. It’s that dangerous moment. That straight ol’ line. The one I can’t walk. The wrongs I can’t ignore. Why she wants this I don’t know. That heavy moment hanging in the air as my eyes dry out from the heat we are generating. She is mumbling something……

“Shane….? I …I’m gonna…gonn…leave you to uh you know walk and be alone…so uh goodnight…”

She doesn’t leave and we kiss.

And I should feel good. And I should feel better. But I don’t. I didn’t. I couldn’t. At least I thought I couldn’t.

She dragged me down on top of her the sound of waves and her deep breathing was all I heard. Her hands all over. They way she let me do what I wanted, the way she let me take complete control. The way she was not like Carmen. Carmen who charged for every piece of her my tongue came in contact with. I stopped to get some air. And I looked down at the need in her, the wanton lost look, she almost looked like felt bad about wanting me to fuck her.

“Don’t do that!”

“Do what?”

“Don’t feel bad about this…if I didn’t want to I would walk away….”

“Shane…”

I kiss her to get her to shut up. Kissing her is completely different from Carmen. Carmen made my head hurt, she made my mouth hurt, she made all things in me flicker and burn. Dana was warm and sweet and inviting. There was no danger of combustion, no fear of any kind. But that doesn’t mean she isn’t hot. I could feel her urgency. She wanted me inside her and fast. But I teased her with my mouth. I bit her softly through the fabric of her blouse. My teeth finding her hard nipple and my tongue applies the slightest amount of pressure, her breathing heavy and hot, her lungs desperate for a way to catch up with the pounding blood in her head. And the familiar feel of her muscled thighs so strong like a vice. My hand knew the way. We had traveled the road together many times. I could never get her to scream. It was always the moans the panting but never a scream.