Shane : Yeah ?

Carmen : Well it starts tonight.

Shane : Ohmm. (disappointed)

Carmen : I’ll be back in four days.

Shane : Four days ?

Carmen : Yeah.. remember I told you I’m out of there at 4:30 the morning and I have to be back there at 7:00 PM.. so.. I don’t want to waste the rest of my day on the road.

Shane : Yeah that’s true.

Carmen : I’m sorry baby

Carmen leaves Shane on the couch and go get her stuff in Shane’s bedroom. Shane stays on the couch, she doesn’t know what to say. Carmen comes back from the bedroom with a sports bag full of clothes and vinyls.

Carmen : I’m very sorry baby, but I really have to go.

Shane : That’s okay.

Carmen : I’ll call you when I’ll get there.

Shane : Okay.

Carmen : Are you gonna be okay ?

Shane : Yeah, don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine.

Carmen : You’ll call me as soon as you get some updates on Jenny’s condition ?

Shane : Yeah, no problem.

Carmen kisses Shane and leave, she gets in her car and leaves for Santa Monica. Shane stays in the living room all alone. She goes in the fridge and gets a beer. She opens it and go back on the couch. She stands there for hours lost in deep thought.

My bestfriend is in coma. What the ***** happened ? She was so happy that Marina came back, I think I’ve never seen her that happy for months. Marina was what she was dreaming from months. I think mmm.. I don’t know. It’s strange how we can feel when someone close has problems.. well there’s nothing I can do. *****!! I wish I can do something for her. It’s only two days she’s gone and those two days feels like a life time. I’ll never tell that to Carmen and or Jenny but I think I’ll miss Jenny more than Carmen for the time they’ll be gone. I know that Carmen will be in Santa Monica just for four days but it’s strange but, some part of me doesn’t really care. Dawm!! Jenny I miss you. Christ!! I miss her so much. I wonder why. I mean I know she’s my bestfriend but.. I don’t know. I feel like when she left.. no she haven’t left she’s in coma. Well since she’s in coma I feel that when that happened, I don’t know.. I feel like a part of myself got in the coma with her. Arfff!! I’m probably thinking of all those things because I just miss her.. and god knows that when we miss someone we can exaggerate everything but still.. I feel something strange since that time.. I’ve never feel so bad when someone close to me goes in a hospital. OK Shane stop dramatising.. She’ll be fine and she’ll take her life back and will be happy with Marina. Dawm!! Why Marina.. after all.. she’d hurt her so hard.. why did she take her back anyway I’ll never take someone back after doing something as bad as that. Yeah! It’s true.. like haven’t really admitting that she loved her in front of Francesca.. Plus, she left without talking to her.. I know she tried but still. *****! What am I talking about it’s not of my business Well yes it is because she’s my bestfriend.. and as a bestfriend those thing matters to me and I have to tell what I think of all of that.. but in a way.. well she can do whatever she wants.. yeah.. it’s her life AAAAAARrrrrhh!!! Shane come on think of something else you’re driving yourself crazy with all this ***** IT’S NOT *****.. it’s all about Jenny. Let’s go come on think of something else here.. think of Carmen.. I don’t care about Carmen.. all that matters to me is Jenny.. you know remember Jenny your girlfriend hummm I mean your bestfriend.. yeah your BESTfriend!!!

Shane starts crying.

Well well well why are you crying now, you dawm idiot.. you can not be happy with someone when you want to be with someone else.. for the first dawm time of your life you’ve found someone who loves you for what you are and now you’re thinking of your bestfriend.. Is my bestfriend more important than my girlfriend?? Come on it’s a very simple question nothing really dangerous to answer.. Come on your a big girl Shane!!! I don’t know.. I really don’t know. Why can’t I switch this ***** brain off!! This way everything will be easier.. You talk a really wired idea Jenny girlfriend ahah!! YOU SHUT THE ***** UP!!! Jenny is my BESTfriend!! OVER!!!
OKAY!! Now come on.. you go at the hospital give Marina.. ***** Marina.. SHUT UP!! some clothes and maybe some food.

Am I falling in love with her?

To Be Continued