But it’s kind of unreal to me, less than a year ago I was in a relationship with a man and now I am in a committed relationship with the most amazing woman that I have ever met.  This is definitely not how I pictured where I would be in my life.  I am more happy than I ever thought that I could be and don’t want to be with anyone else doing anything else.

Bette is amazing and I love her more than anything and anyone.  I want everything with her a home, which I have, I want a long-term relationship with her, a family.

I’ve always wanted a family ever since I was a little girl in North Carolina playing with my dolls.  I don’t know how to breach the subject with Bette and I don’t think that we are anywhere close to the point of even thinking about the timing of having children.  But I really do need to know if they are in her plans because if not I don’t know what kind of future we have in front of us.

Dear Diary,

I am so thankful that I have moved in with Bette, something about the end of July in Los Angeles and having a pool in your backyard.  I have never been this tan in my life and I have lived in California for seven years now.  Plus being able to see Bette in a bikini, I don’t know why but it’s sexier than her naked.

And the funniest thing happened a few days ago, I had gone shopping to buy some new bikinis because I knew that I would be using them and had put on this blue just covering the important places one on and walked out onto the patio where Bette was sunbathing while reading an art magazine.  She said “hi T’ but didn’t look up from the magazine, I just dove into the pool and started swimming laps.  After 15 minutes or so I was done with my laps and when I rose up out of the pool I heard Bette’s glass of iced tea shatter on the patio.  I looked over at her and she was staring at me with her mouth opened and her eyes shining in arousal. I just went about getting my towel and wrapping it around me to dry of a little before I laid down in the lounge chair next to her.