Next thing I knew Bette was on top of me, kissing and touching me all over.  Then seconds later my bikini top was untied and thrown across the patio and a frantic animalistic love making session commenced.  When we were finished, I looked up into her eyes and realized that she was still in her bikini and I was laying there naked under her.

Even though we had been making love for two months this was the first really fast and furious session.  Usually it was slow and built up to orgasm but this was fast and my first orgasm came quickly.  I swear it was the most intense orgasm that I have ever had.  That being said I have been sexually active since I was 17, so nine years now.  But Bette is amazing and all of my orgasms with her are better and stronger than with any of my previous partners.

Dear Diary,

It been a few months since I have written on you and it’s just been too busy.  Between adjusting to living with Bette and the craziness that has been going on at work there just hasn’t been any time.  I am writing because it will be Thanksgiving soon and it’s the first time that I won’t be spending it with my family in North Carolina.  I never thought in my life that I wouldn’t be talking to them at all but it’s been five months since that horrible trip happened.

To make it worse this year my baby sister’s birthday is Thanksgiving and I am missing it.  I am still going to send a card and a present, some art supplies, but I don’t even know if my parents will let her have them.  They are both people stuck in their ways and now that I am cut off I am cut off from everyone, even my extended family won’t talk to me.  I tried to get a hold of my cousin Jon and nothing.  I left a few messages on his machine but never got any response so I just gave up.  I didn’t even try my grandparents because they are just like my parents in their beliefs and opinions so it wasn’t worth putting me out there.

I really never would have thought that in my life I wouldn’t be spending the holidays with my family and that I would be missing out on my sister’s 16^th birthday.

Oh the way things have turned out.

Dear Diary,

Thanksgiving was yesterday and it was a rough day for me.  Thanksgiving has always been a big holiday for my family and missing it was hard, really hard.  Plus with it being Rebekah’s birthday, my instinct was to try and call her but I knew that no one would let me actually talk to her.  She’s 16 now for pete’s sake, she not a little kid anymore and they won’t let me have any contact with her.  I did try to send a birthday card and present to her but they arrived back to the house as ‘return to sender’ yesterday.  It was worth the attempt I suppose but I don’t even know if they told her I sent anything.  Beka and I were always the closest even with our ten year age difference.  But her sweet 16 will be one without me.

But the good thing is I spent the day with Bette just the two of us.  We were going to have Alice come over too with her most recent girlfriend but they broke up and Alice didn’t want to come alone even though Bette and I both assured her that it would be awkward and she would be the third wheel.  I cooked the traditional turkey with all of the standard fixings, stuffing, cranberry sauce, apple pie and Bette loved all of it.  I generally speaking cook dinner for us most nights but this was different, it was our first holiday for us together and I wanted to make it special.  And it was special, just Bette and I in our dining room eating and talking. 

And Bette was wonderful, she didn’t try to take my mind off the fact I wasn’t with my family but made mention that I was with my family, her.