From: ChristineK @ NoISP.com
18 May 2004 1:34 pm

Bette,
Tina and I went out for lunch today. I dont teach any classes on Tuesday so, we were able to go out. I told her that I refuse to allow her to isolate and sulk. She talked more about the miscarriage. I had known that there was a lot going on with you both at the time, but I hadnt realized all that was happening with your art show. She told me about that god-awful god- freak and the things she said on television. Jesus, what a load of ***** to have heaped upon the two of you after losing a baby. I think you should have replaced Jesus in Me with Pitchfork Up Faye Buckleys *****.
She slept last night, the first time she has really slept since she had been here. Thats a good sign.
Chris

From: PorterB @ CalArtsCtr.com
18 May 2004 2:30 pm

Chris,
I cannot begin to describe what an awful experience that was for both of us nor can I describe my guilt over creating a situation where Tina was forced to hear such horrible things. I cannot fathom how a love of art (which was the motivation for my career choice) could lead to a scene so vile. How can people use God to justify such hate and such evil? That entire situation haunts me and I suspect it shall for quite some time. The miscarriage was the most heartbreaking experience of my life and the agony was compounded by the actions of those people. I can only imagine how horrible it must have been for Tina, but then I was too absorbed to pay much attention.
It is good that Tina is getting out. I hate to think of her isolating in depression over my acts. Do you think she would accept it if I sent some flowers?
Please give her my love, if she will accept it.
Bette

From: ChristineK @ NoISP.com
18 May 2004 11:58 pm
Bette,
You know what they say about laughter being the best medicine, as such we stayed in tonight and watched stupid comedy shows. It was good that Tina was able to laugh.
I cannot answer your question about using God to justify evil. As a Professor of Criminal Justice, I have encountered details of every form of evil that can exist. I have never found anyone who could present a justification, though God is one that is often used.
From what Tina told me, it sounds like she felt very alone during that period of time. It must have been difficult for you to balance your family life with the demands of your job at that time.
As for sending flowers, give her a little bit more time.
Chris