“Are you ok?” Tina asked noticing the look on Bettes face as she walked inside . Standing up she walked towards her.

“Where were you?” She whispered without anger, just concern.

Looking at Tina, Bette felt all over again the pain, anger and fear that the last day brought and without thinking, she moved closer to Tina. Seeing the look in Bettes eyes getting darker and sadder, Tina caressed her face, the line of her features. Feeling Tinas hand on her, her almost forgotten sweetness, her warmth, Bette felt her body shivering and as an impulse, she grabbed her and taking her she pushed her to the wall and to kiss her. It was furious, passionate and sad. She needed Tina, she wanted her, she needed to feel alive, close to somebody, close to Tina. She needed comfort, to know that somebody was there for her. Kissing Tina, Bette felt lust growing on but then, as hard as she was kissing Tina, Tina moved away.

“You ok? Tina asked, trying to sound calm but slowly moving away from Bette.

Noticing the gap between them growing by seconds, Bette whispered,

“I want you.

Moving closer again, taking Tinas hand in hers, she added,

“I want to make love to you”

Letting Bette kiss her, Tina shook her head just before moving apart.

“BetteBettewe have talkthis is not the best thing to do right nowIIm confuseIm”

Stunned, Bette looked at Tina for a long time while trying to tame her anger before turning around and without saying another word, she left.

She drove for almost an hour before stopping at a small hotel on the coast. Noticing the hour she set the alarm clock and opening the window, she let the cold breeze cradle her while looking at the ocean. She could not sleep even when she couldnt remember when was the last time she was so tired. Seeing the sun rising she checked the time and not wanting to be late she went to the bathroom to clean her face, noticing for the first time the look on her face. She had been crying without even knowing it. She was pale and her hands were shaking. Cleaning her face, she thought about Dana and hiding her own pain and confusion about Tina she took the road and drove back to the city, heading to the hospital.