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First Year- Chapter 5
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I was stunned this was coming from someone who in a little less than two years would take the Hippocratic Oath. I asked with total disgust, “What did you just say?”
“Sodomy is a sin. AIDS is God’s punishment, he probably deserved it.”
I chastised him, “I cannot believe how fucking ignorant you are. Who are you to judge someone and decide what is a just punishment for them living their life in a way that is right for them. How could you dare say something like that?”
He responded, “I just have traditional values. I just don’t understand gays.”
"You don’t understand anything because you’ve got your head stuck in values that promote hate and ignorance. I am a lesbian. So what disease will you tell me I deserve.”
He looked at me with no response. I stared at him at shook my head. After a short time of us staring at each other, he walked away and went off the see the patient, Joshua McDonough. Stan Z-man spent a very long time talking with him and when he was done he went off to the library. I didn’t think twice about coming out to him. There was no way I could let him say the things he was saying. God, did I miss crazy Jenny at that point. His ignorance and hate was his sin. It was so easy for him to say what he did, I wondered if his intern, Bette, agreed with his anti-gay, homophobic beliefs. I dreaded his summary and what the rest of the night held for us.
I reviewed the chart and to my surprise, this was not a gay man, but a 28 year old hemophiliac who contracted HIV through tainted blood products he received as a very young child to control his bleeding disorder. He was the surviving son of four and had already seen his three older brothers die from AIDS. He had taken various anti-retrovirals for years but over time developed viral resistance. In the past year his health began to progressively decline, as he developed one opportunistic infection after the other. I spoke at length with his mother who had a tremendous sense of guilt because it was through her that her sons received the hemophiliac gene. He had been admitted almost monthly and each time his stay in hospital was longer than the other and his stay at home shorter. We spoke of hospice for him. It was difficult for her to hear this suggestion because he had survived for more than 20 years with the virus and he was her last son. She just was not ready to hear that medical science, with all its progression, had no more to offer him. It was a difficult conversation to have, but it was even harder to actually go in and see him.
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I actually felt sorry for Stan. Being fed ignorance from the time he was born never gave him a chance but it’s his responsibility to educate himself and learn for his own experiences. I felt he did just that with his rounds with Helena. Hopefully when Stan go back to Bette some of his new humanity will rub off on her. So far the only person I heard Helena say she loathed was Bette, Stan and Kroll. I can cross off Stan he’s a man and Kroll well some how I don’t think she Helena’s type. Will the two heart breaks be Dylan and Carmen and then that will leave our lovely lady all to Bette. Thanks for the clarification on Bette’s field it made sense. I guess that’s why the pyschologist on Law&Order:SVU had some knowledge of IM.
Geezzzzzzz, Squirly you got my head spinning. I liked Helena in alpha mode, she can be insecure but when her passions kick up WATCH OUT. The way StanZman ate crow was probaby the most important lesson in his young life so far. Good for him getting it the first time. I’m also thinking Dr. PK is riding Helena becasue she wants her to be the best. Bette, well Betts just doing her thing, cant’t wait to see whre that goes. I’ll try to be a good girl till Saturday a.m. when you post my St. Valentines Day present. Thank you, Md, aka Oma
I really loved this chapter, Squirl! It was Helena at her best – bossy but with a compassionate twist. She seems to have figured out the politics of her internship year. I wonder what’s up with Kroll and why she’s favoring the Bette-ster. Although you have told us that Bette is straight, I’m thinking that may not be so true. Perhaps her and Tina have something starting? Maybe she’s just in the closet. I know Helena’s going to cheat on Dylan with Carmen but could you reconsider Bette? Maybe Bette gets drunk one evening and she finds out from Stan that Helena’s gay and one thing leads to another. I meant to type RILF in my last comment (resident I’d love to f***) in a similar vain to the well-known MILF. Can’t wait for Moma’s post on Saturday!
Apologies for the blanket comment regarding neurosurgeons, I think we experienced one who was all nuts and bolts..str8 with no chaser…lacking humanistic flare…but he warmed up over time :) At any rate, loved the update! You definitely really get a sense of the physical and emotional challenge of the profession…the training…and of the families you care for…This is definitely going to be interesting. With Jenny the libidio squelcher and Al the caring, quirky social worker, drama will be par for the course and I suspect everyone will continue to learn more about themselves and what they are made of…I definitely want to believe that the hazing the residents are getting is because it is truly life or death…favoritism is unfortunately a part of human nature. Besides, even here….no one is immune from Bette’s charm…even those who loathe her! PPS
Heya there S, you whisphered too low for me to understand who Helena was going to end up with ,,,lol…but oh well I’ll have to just keep on reading huh..haha! Well it was good to see that Stan actually changed some and let’s hope for the better. As for Kroll I am thinking that she want’s Helena to be the best and see’s much potoential in her that is why she is always asking the hard questions. good chappy S!!!!
That was a really good update…that Jenny – you gotta love her…loved H’s interaction with stan, very thoughtfully done!! Cheers
Well written Squirl. I think that experience for Stan was long overdue. I’m from the West Indies myself & sadly many of my brethren think exactly as he did. Anxiously waiting for the next chapter. Cheers mate, PPS!
at least some other type of ignorance has been lifted in this constant learning timestable
It was about this time last night that I was on the first page when the electricity went off for the 3rd time and stayed off. Bit windy. Take 2. Hmmmm…yes I know quite a few folks from the Caribbean. They tend to be very sweet, and the black folk do tend to be extremely homophobic none the less. I’m glad Stan learned better and did so quickly. Joshua must have been a fighter to survive both the hemophilia and 20 years of AIDS. Poor Joshua’s mom, even if it wasn’t all her fault she MUST have felt terribly guilty to lose all her sons. My brother lost so many friends. I hope none of them had to deal with judgmental staff, there really is no room for that sort of thing in medicine.
Wait! Dinner with Mom is the time to feel sexy again?