“Why don´t you come back or just call” she whispered helpless into the silence.

She closed the laptop and stood up.

“I need to clear my mind”, she thought tired and went into the bathroom.

The water which streamed constantly into the bathtube filled the room with a appeasing sound.

Jenny tested the water temprature by helding her hand under the running water.

It was hot. Steaming hot. But she kept her hand under the water which turned red immediately.

Like she was watchin from the outside she observe the water streaming over her hand.

She bit her lower lip till she couldn´t stand it anymore and pulled her hand back.

The sweet numbness spread through her mind filled with guilt that she wasn´t strong enough.

A single tear fell from eyes before she turned the water off.

She went out of the bathroom to get fresh clothe when she heard steps in the living room.

It was probably Bette who came by every evening to see if Shane finally came back but although she took a look around the corner.

And there she stood, her bag next to her feet. Looking exhausted, scared, lost.

Jenny didn´t say a word she just walked slowly over to Shane who jerked like a little child when she saw Jenny and took her in a warm embracement.

First Shane was still rigid but then she slung her arms around Jenny and held her close.

A knive stabbed into Shanes heart when she saw tears gleaming in Jennys eyes.

But Jenny just smiled showing Shane that everything was okay.

Now everything was okay.

She suggested Shane to sit down at the kitchen table while she went to the fridge to pour Shane a glass with cold orange juice.

Jenny noticed the questioning look of Shane who looked in the direction of her bedroom.

Just with a slight shake of her head she made Shane understand that Carmen wasn´t there. She immediately saw Shanes tensed body relax a little.

Shane sat down at the kitchen table resting her head on her arms on the table. She was so tired. Tired of life.

Still no one had said a word.

It was this calming silence Shane just felt when Jenny was around.

She  knew that she didn´t have to explain or to vindicate herself in front of Jenny.

There was just this comforting silence which made her feel like she was at home.Safe.

Jenny placed the glass with orange juice on the table and took a seat next to Shane.

Carefully Jenny laid a hand in Shanes neck, stroking gently through her hair.

She felt Shane slowly relax under her hands following by a sob.

Shane started to cry, she knew she didn´t had to hide away from Jenny. Only Jenny knew who she really was, Jenny knew the places she had been.

And Jenny didn´t care about that. She loved her for who she was.

Jenny stood up and embraced Shane from behind laying her head between Shanes shoulder blades. She held her tight when Shane began to tremble and sobbing harder.