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    Hindsight – Chapter 1

    Story written on November 9, 2006 by Jobadge.
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    Bette Porter: I never believed it would become a chore to live…

     

    “How did you hurt your head?”

     

    “I fell…”

     

    “Were you drunk?”

     

    I looked at her then, the first time I had looked into her face in seven weeks and four days, was this what she came around to say, if that was the case, I didn’t want her here. I looked away without replying, she could think whatever she wanted.

     

    “I was surprised to see you earlier…” her voice broke the silence between us.

     

    “That was pretty obvious… if you’d have walked away any faster you would have been sprinting…”

     

    She didn’t answer me, what a surprise.

     

    “Why are you here?”  I asked her.

     

    “I was worried about you…”

     

    “Huh, why now, why not last week or the week before, or the week before that huh? Why now, why today?” my voice was rising, I knew that but did she think she had the right to just walk in here and announce she was worried about me, after all this time.

     

    “I didn’t think you looked too well today…”

     

    “You mean you stood around long enough to notice, I don’t think so, do you?”

     

    “Bette…”

     

    “What Tina…you know I have called you everyday since you left, every single fucking day, and not once have you returned my call, I left messages, did you even listen to them??”

     

    “To start with… yeah I did…”

     

    “To start with, that’s nice… real nice…” I shook my head, fucking typical, but what did I expect, I had already accepted she was beating me.

     

    “Was there anything you wanted in particular?” she asked, enquiring about the calls.

     

    “You are unfuckingbelievable… do you know that, was there anything I wanted…” I laughed as the tears began to sting my eyes, “yeah actually… I want… to see… my daughter…!”  The words choked out as the tears spilled and furiously ran over my cheeks.

     

    “You took her Bette…”

     

    “I know I did, and I regret it, and I have apologised for it… time and again I have been apologising”

     

    “You shouldn’t have done it…”

    I sighed, “Believe me, I know…,” easy to say with the benefit of fucking hindsight.  I had been living with the consequences of it every single day, she had no idea.  I stood then, pacing beside the pool, feeling suddenly uncomfortable with her presence.

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    1. Wow… I would have slapped Tina when she said, “You have no idea.” Really? Doesn’t she?! Ugh. This hurt and made me angry and so many other things, but I love it…

    3. As painful as it was to read, I couldn’t pull my eyes away from the page. You always manage to bring me into your stories as if I’m actually watching the events unfold. You are AWESOME! I hope Tina will do the right thing, and let Bette see her daughter. She has emotionally beat Bette down by not allowing her to see Angelica and now it is affecting Bette’s health. PPS!

    6. That had to be the most depressing thing I’ve read in a long time. I understand, I can even relate, but I’m drained and not in a good way. Bette screwed up, hindsight or not. Doesn’t matter how young or how old we are, when were hurt, angry, etc., knowing doesn’t play into it, we totally react to our emotions. Tina still cares we know she does, lets hope they can work it out. It would be nice if Angelica was asleep in the car.

    7. Bette needs help. She can’t be with her daughter if she wastes away to nothing or drinks herself into oblivion. This is painful, but please keep writing.

    9. Holy shit! Thanks for making me cry Jo. That was fricken sad and Tina needs to not be a bitch and let Bette see her daughter. This better not happen on the show.I will NOT be happy!WAY heavy

    12. Damn, Jo, you’re bumming me out. Bette’s a bulemic alcholic. That’s one suck-ass combination. And Tina is brilliantly , unrecombitantly selfish. That’s pretty suck-ass, too. Has it finally dawned on Tina how vicious and unforgiving she is?

    13. Jobadge, You are a fantastic diversified writer. The emotions you evoke are spell binding, Between you and Jwets Post today, emotional is just putting it mildly

    14. Wow! That was painful to read and I like slipperynipple had to skim over the beginning and not in all relation to your writing. Is it bad to want severe bodily harm to come to a fanfic character? Damn!Jo, you are one of the few that can make me hate Tina one minute and then love her the next. Post soon!

    15. This is really deep and powerful. The depths of pain being felt by Bette can be felt in every word written. I wonder why Tina felt she had the right to go and check on Bette? How funny that she answered Bette’s question but can’t understand how the pain she felt would not be magnified a thousand times by keeping Bette away from “her” daughter. I am hoping for a happy ending with my favorite couple.

    16. You know I trust you but you know my hormones are all over the place. This post just about killed me. Cried like a baby…you are simply amazing. I hope you post again very soon.

    18. OMG, there are 2 empty bottles…she’s going to drop right there in front of Tina. Sad, but what a way to go right in front of the women who took her daughter away w/out any regard to her feelings…that’a a very long 7wks 4day…Well this gives a kick start to the day…and not in your usual way, tks JB

    21. God, that was painful to read. I hope Tina can now see things from Bette’s perspective and have a little compassion for her. You are going to continue with this story, aren’t you?

    23. Well at least Tina cared enough to check if Bette was ok after seeing her earlier..tho running away was probably on impulse…it wasnt right either!….A vulnerable Bette gets to us all i think!.well it does me!!!..and she has hit her lowest ebb…looking forward to seeing where this goes….

    24. At the age of 28 I have not yet quite figured out if hindsight is a blessing or curse. Personally I tend to lean more towards curse, ignorance is bliss afterall. Honestly I skipped quite a bit of this story, sorry, it had nothing to do with your writing. I’m just not a fan of self flagellation. If Bette had had any insight she might have secured her place in Angelica’s life or she might have left Tina alone after setting eyes on her. But you see that’s the bitch with hindsight there is no rectifying or changing what has already past. And oh yes Bette has my permission to choke the shit out of Tina at least in this story. :0

    29. Hey Jo, That was intense. I completely trust you because of all the fabulous fan fictions you have so lovingly crafted and developed. This is currently the most gut and heart wrenching one I have every read. The total despair is there on the screen. Bette’s depression is overwhelming. As is Tina’s thoughtlessness. Sad to see how a person who was once the heart of the family, the carer of all other so remote from soemone she once loved. The real heartbreak is Angelica’s loss of her mother. The poignancy of her “Mama” cry was awesome. More please as this tale needs to run its course. Thank you as ever for this magnificent piece of emotive narrative. It is in a class of its own. Thank you, Your Loyal (if Lurking) Fan.

    37. I had to stop and walk away a few times while reading this chapter/story. I have felt that total emptiness and took steps to not waking up again. My emptinss was not to the extent that Bette is feeling at this time but it was enough. I trust you to make this better and to ease some of Bette’s pain. Tina obviously is concerned and maybe just maybe she still loves Bette or she would not be standing by the pool watching the love of her life disappear in front of her eyes.

    38. Oh sweetie, my eyes misted too, so sad, but all the same truly amazing and beautiful!!! Like you I love a vulnerable BP, never thought you would show us her hitting the bottom like this, but I totally understand your reasons – and for me to enjoy a ‘lifeless’ and desperate BP like I just did says everything about what a gifted writer you are. I am even more in awe by you now…..you can write all kinds of emotions and scenarios!!!I do trust you mate, always!! I’m sure Bette will have little Angle back in her life, but I’m not so sure about T???? Did notice the Levis is still there, gives me hope though :o))Call off all your plans for tonight – you’ve to write more and NOW!! I can do your work tomorrow, so you can stay home and write ok LOL. Sorry for keep you waiting, but I had to think more about this one….and yeah The Zebra can think LOL. Post soon please.

    45. Bette has definately hit rock bottom…so hopefully she will start to climb up. She loves Angelica but she has to love herself also. She needs to be around for the time that Angelica will have a choice to be with her mother…it seems like Tina is enjoying her little new life with a man so Bette might just have to pick herself up and try to make the best of her life without the love of her life…(hopefully they can somehow make their way back together…but that is a long way away it seems) please keep posting this story.

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