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    Hindsight – Chapter 33

    Story written on February 13, 2007 by Jobadge.
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    Tina Kennard: The intensity that I wanted to escape from was now something I craved…

     

    But it had also been a difficult day too, filled with more emotions that I had expected, probably what I would call a rollercoaster of a day, but as I glance at my watch and check the time, it was a rollercoaster that wasn’t about to end anytime soon.

     

    I would spend another hour or so here and then I would have to be facing what lay ahead and it wasn’t something I was looking forward too, not in the slightest…, how was I going to tell him…

     

    I took our coffee cups into the lounge and just sat on the sofa, my body was aching…, not physically…, but emotionally…, it was drained…, completely drained…

     

    I laid my head back, as I had done this morning and closed my eyes, I felt a sense of peace being sat here, it was the smell, the surroundings, just the feel of the place…

     

    “Tired…?”

     

    I opened my eyes to find Bette standing over me, she smiled as I tried hard to not look like the wreck that I felt…

     

    She moved to sit next to me on the sofa, moving a pillow and a blanket out of her way.

     

    “Yeah I am tired, are you…; it’s been an exhausting day…” I reply.

     

    “Yeah it has been pretty draining… why don’t you go and lie down for an hour while Angelica is asleep?”

     

    “Its okay, you go lie in the bedroom, I can lie down here…”

     

    “No… this is my bed…” she said as she pat the surface of the sofa.

     

    “What do you mean?”

     

    “This is where I sleep…, apart from last night that is, but I didn’t have a say in that one…” she smiled, knowing she had not been in any state to make requests of where she wanted to sleep last night.

     

    “I don’t understand…, why don’t you sleep in your bed?”

     

    She looked down at the coffee in her hand, before looking back at me, “it’s not my bed, it’s our bed…, and I can’t… bring myself to sleep in it alone…”

     

    “For how long…?” I ask her quietly.

     

    “Since you left…”

     

    “Bette…, it can’t be doing you any…”

     

    “Tina…” she interrupted, “just go and lie down…, you’re exhausted, did you get any sleep last night…?”

     

    “No…”

     

    “What were you doing…?”

     

    “Watching you…” I said quietly.

     

    “I’m sure that was riveting…, watching a drunken Porter with a bruised head sleep…”

     

    “I’ve missed watching you sleep…”

     

    She just looked at me, absorbing my words…, she looked down at her cup once again, I saw her take deep breath, she looked back at me before speaking.

     

    “I’ve missed waking up and seeing your face, which is why I can’t bear to sleep in that bed, because I know that when I wake up, you’re not there…”

     

     

     

     

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    1. Jo as you may know this story always dismantles me…and now i have to say this with the utmost of love…WHY, WHY? ONLY ONE PAGE??? Can’t we have a few more?? Huh? P-p-please???? AHEM! Anywho..love this fic…please continue..

    5. I don’t get the “black like your woman” statement. Except for that who shall not be named, when did Bette ever date anyone black or even remotely black? Oh well, now that these two understand what the deal is, let’s get rid of Henry!

    7. Probie, it’s just a saying. I first heard it on the show “Good Times” when a woman (I don’t think it was Florida) who said she’d take her coffee like she takes her men. “Black and strong.” I have yet to hear “white and weak.” xD I don’t think Jo would have Tina make that crack if it was supposed to be about Candace. lol =)

    8. I pray, Jo, that Tina will have the strength to continue on this new road. That when she gets back to see Henry, that she will continue and not back down…..

    10. Jo, it hurts… Make it better? I know, I sound like a whiney 3-yr-old, but I’m sick, so I’m entitled… Still trusting you… barely… I expect more rough patches at some point, but they’re doing so well!

    11. Jo….No one does what you can do. Superb. Wasn’t JB wonderful in this last episode (6) ?? I didn’t quite get why she was sobbing before she kissed Jodi. Maybe you can elucidate either in a PM or in your author’s notes with your next chapter. You understand this sensitive stuff.

    12. this is so good, you make my hearth melt this words, they love each other so much that hurt! They are talking and is a big step please don’t leave them walk away.

    13. i am gonna sound mighty greedy when i say this……but i would love another chappy…..lol……i know, i know…..u posted 2 already……i can wait i reckon…..

    16. No, I really don’t think you’ll allow them to wallow in regret. Sounds like things are moving along swimmingly. Jo, I hate to say it but when I scrolled to the bottom of the comments I found that bizarre ad for natural male douche again. Is anybody else as puzzled by this as I am? What could be more unnatural? Well, anyway, it cracks me up (no pun intended) every time I see it.

    19. You know Tina’s dress (that you can not see because she is hidden behind Bette) is a different color blue. It has an almost purplish tint to it. This is really emotional but very needed. They both are laying it on the line and finally saying what is in their hearts.

    24. I feel for Tina… going back to Henry must be tearing her apart. I so hope Tina can hold on to her newfound clarity… and that she’ll remember her way back to Bette as SOON as the breakup with Henry is over. Hurry home, Tina!!! Thanks, Jo – your story is beautiful… as always.

    25. Two posts in a row…you are spoiling us and we could get used to it. Maybe Tina should just take Bette by the hand and drag her to the bedroom for just a nap and a cuddle. I’m sure they both could use it and T would be there when they wake up. Give Bette something to look forward to…. :) Love this story!

    27. Jo, You really know how to take your reader along this emotive and painful journey. It is difficult to read the hurt and not be affected. Only something worthwhile would require this anxiety as both gals are ready to admit their mistakes and share their fears. They will need to forgive themselves for all past mistakes but if the injured party bares no gridge that can be a easier task to do. Jo, this is a wonderful rollercoaster of a ride a we get insight into both Bette and Tina. Thank you so much for continuing to propagate this site with your literary talent. Your Loyal Fan.

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