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    Hindsight – Chapter 4

    Story written on November 25, 2006 by Jobadge.
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    Tina Kennard: How could I even begin to make up for the devastation I had caused in her life.

     

    “I would have preferred you waking me first if that’s the case…” she jested.

     

    I looked at her then, I hoped she could see how worried I was for her, our silence was deafening as we looked at one another, why could she make my heart continue to pound when no words were said…

     

    The shrill sound of my cell broke the silence, here eyes darted to my bag on the chair, she looked back at me and raised her eyebrows, “go ahead…” she said as she stood and took our cups and walked to the kitchen.

     

    I looked to the display and saw his name; I pressed the button and put the phone to my ear.

     

    “Hi… yeah, I’m still here… no, I don’t know Henry…” I sighed at the questions, but he knew I needed to be here, we talked about it last night, before I came here, “yeah, she’s okay…” I had to give him credit, he was a nice guy and he was also concerned at the state Bette was in as he also took in what had happened in front of us yesterday… “okay… bye…”

     

    I switched my cell phone off and put it back into my bag as she walked back into the dining room with two fresh cups of coffee.  She sat back in the chair she had occupied only moments ago.

     

    “I’m sorry about that…” I nodded my head to my bag, referring to the interruption; the lightness of our conversation was gone.

     

    She shrugged her shoulders again, she was doing that a lot today, it was understandable, we were in a place we had never been before.

     

    Angelica walked toward us, carrying the toys she had found in her bedroom, the toys that she had played with when she had lived here… she stood beside Bette, her hands held up as her request to sit on her lap.

     

    I watched as she lifted her up and sat her down, her lips kissing the dark curls, I saw the quiver of her chin, her eyes closing as she took in the feel of her daughter.

     

    My own eyes welled at the scene before me, I felt the constriction in my throat as the tears fell, the choke escaping, she looked up at me as she heard the noise, our eyes met as I watched her lay her cheek against the dark curls, I broke down as the velocity of the simple action of seeing a mother and daughter together tore through me.

     

    The sobs wracked through me, I covered my face with my hands as the pain I had been holding inside broke free, the pain of the last seven weeks surfaced, it surfaced as she watched me, she held our daughter as the floodgates of my pent up emotions spilled free.

     

    I felt a hand on my shoulder then, her hand, I looked up as she stood beside me, Angelica sitting on the floor beside us, she reached for my hand, pulling me to my feet as the tears continued to fall, the sobs wracking my body…, she brought me into her arms and held me tightly as the pain escaped, she held onto me as I felt her let go too…

     

     

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    1. This is just gripping. Thankyou, it’s got me at the edge of my seat, I feel like I’m totally in that kitchen watching this breakdown and hopefully reuniting!!!..Pls jobage post soon….

    3. Jo, amazing…..i love it how you can read a fic, and feel everything that the characters are feeling….i dont usually feel that way, but this fic, it is amazing…you have an amazing talent, and a wonderful storyline…just 2 things…….POST LONGER AND FASTER!!!!!!!!….1,000 STARS FROM ME…..POST AGAIN SOON PLEASE…..I CAN’T TAKE THE WAITING…….LOL……

    6. Tina is a piece of work but I am glad that she is realizing the depth her actions but I still would like to throw her ass off the cliff into the waterall where Dana’s spirit lives on! I don’t have children but the pain must be unbearable to have your child taken from you with no communication at all. It’s mind boggling how many parents do that to one another and the children. I understand Tina was hurt from Bette’s so called kidnapping & custody, but what she did takes the fucking cake hands down. I am really trying to be good here and not call tina every name in the fucking book as I will allow her to say her piece, but it’s really hard. Post soon!

    7. Wow Bette is one hell of a woman, comforting and supporting T in this very difficult situation, I love that – like I really really love your dialogues, so spot on….like always!!! Great Tina confessed about listening to all the messages, they’ve to be completely honest with each other. I give you 3 hours, then I expect chapter 5!!! xx

    8. I felt like I was setting there looking at what was going on. I felt like I was intruding on something between to people that needed to be very private. that was very heart breaking. Even the baby was so happy,yet afraid that her other Mom was not going to be with her. Sad. thanks for the insight of broken hearts. thanks

    9. I forgot: Bette deserves a gold star because I don’t think I would be comforting that wench after what she did. And I am glad that Bette has not fainted although I suspect it might be coming up soon! lol

    13. Another Excellent chapter Job. I adore Tina,but what she’s done is really unforgivable. To deliberately keep someone away from thier child is just ruthless. Bette kidnapping Angie was bad,but not as bad as what Tina’s done. I for one,never had any sympathy for IC’s Chaiken’s Bette,but I feel terribly awful and heartbroken for what’s happend to Bette is this fic,perhaps I might feel for IC’s Bette now. The fact that she’s willing to comfort Tina while she finally has an apiphany regarding the pain’s she’s caused,shows that Bette is trying to forgive her. Bette really needs to be strong for her baby,and for the first time ever, I could care less what happens to Tina. I’m happy that she’s finally realized the pain she’s caused Bette,but she now she needs to help Bette heal mentally and physically. PPS.

    14. Wow, Jo! So much pain and anger and love and dismay and honesty and…just the full range of emotions! You never cease to amaze me with how you flesh out their thoughts and motivations, and their love is always so apparent. Please continue quickly!

    15. Even through all the pain that they have endured there is still something magical between them. Now, they have to decide how to handle that magic and how to move forward. They have reached that valley the bottom of the deep blue sea, but now it is time to climb back up or swim to the top. With Angelica’s help there is hope and a way to survive. Now it is up to them to take that step forward.

    16. Tina did a bad thing but it is Bette that’s responsible for how she is now. Tina has been selfish but I think in some way it was protection mode because Bette had every intention of taking Angelica away from her. They have used Angelica against eachother so they’re just the same IMO.

    18. That was exceptionally mature of Bette to offer comfort to Tina, who may have just made some baby steps of her own towards maturity. Angelica is perhaps a bit farther down that path than Tina, but I suppose she can’t be all bad to have raised the child to that level. Now if everybody can learn to stand in the line of fire when things get tough and gut out the hard stuff, we may have something. Seems to me that’s what being a grown up is: to deal with the hard stuff, not run, not play games. May I also observe that emotions are the reason both for staying and for running. If one is really grown up and really loves, they stay and they deal.

    19. WOW!!! In the end Bette has to hold Tina and let her cry. Why does that seem so wrong. But then agein that is Bette one hell of a woman!!! Thanks Jo PPS

    22. Wow…this is some emotional stuff here. That was very big of Bette to offer Tina comfort…that’s love. Can they be saved? I hope so…they have a tough mountain to climb though. Tina is still with Henry. Please post soon.

    23. Damn this is amazing, everytime I read this story I cry, its sad to see Bette and Tina like this. Tina need to leave henrydick, and come back to Bette and they talk and work thing out, she need to take care of Bette and Angel, and they will be a family again and forever. OK post soon please, thanks!

    25. Your friends jokingly call you a “yokel” or a “rube”, a “country bumpkin”. I don’t know any yokels that write as you can. God, this chapter was brilliant as is this story. You have so many weapons in your writing arsenal. Sometimes you write devilish one pagers that are clever and spicy. Then you roll off this type of story that is painful, authentic but beautiful in its own right. Brava, Jo! For this Yank can you please define the word “clam”.

    28. this was very emotional to read, wonderfully written and you displayed both of their emotion levels so realistically…my heart goes to bette and tina, i hope angie will help to reunite them again

    30. You must be tired of hearing this, but God what a story!!! An emotional rollercoaster is an understatement, and I love it so incredibly much… The stream of emotion that is lurking behind the corner, the inevitable L-word, is almost palpable… Please dont make me wait long for the update! Hug JLBT

    35. Jesus Joe you have brought me to tears every chappy. If it wasn’t for the fact, I BELIEVE you will bring them back together, i don’t know if I could handle more. Well it is beautifully written as well.WOW you are goooood!

    36. Let the healing the begin and the realization that they need each other to survive. Tina needs to leave Henry and love Bette back the health. Bette and Angelica connection is beautiful!!!! PPS

    37. my turn to be first on your chapter J – another stunning piece of realism. totally in awe of you and your writing talents, you are the only writer that i get really excited about reading — even if you are a clam and a yokel . xxxx great result for your woman as well !!!

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