”But you haven’t eaten a bite since yesterday’s breakfast!” Amy cut up rough, looking indignantly at her retreating daughter. ”Tina, this is ridiculous, you need to eat!”

”I’ll eat something at college” Tina called out as she jogged down the stairs and out of the house, leaving her exasperated mother behind.

Having been living with Bette for almost half a year Tina was unaccustomed to stand in traffic jams since Bette’s apartment was located a five minutes ride from her college instead of all twenty. Before, Tina had always passed the time by listening to music or talking her ride away with Alice on the phone. Right now, as she sat in her car Tina didn’t want anything. Every sound was like a drone to her ears, a drone she wanted to hide from. She wanted to hide from everything these days, to stay in her bed with no one to pester her, while she wallowed in her depression.

Not only that Bette had been lying to her for such a long time whereas telling her tales about love, she hadn’t even called yet. Third day was proceeding already and there was no apology, no explanation, no anything. In fact, Tina didn’t even know if she wanted to hear all that. She surely wasn’t ready for that now. Or ever. On the other hand, the blonde wondered where was Bette, what was she doing, how was she feeling. Tina closed her eyes at the thought. She deeply hated that she actually cared. After all Bette had done to her Tina still cared and it infuriated her to no end. How could a person feel both love and intense hatred for someone who had caused so much damage?

Tina was conflicted. If Bette called, how would she respond to her apologies anyway? I hate you and Never call me again would have been her eventual responses. As Tina was mulling it over now, nothing of what Bette had to explain would make it all better. Nothing would do anymore. Their relationship was incurable. Feeling her wounded heart crack a bit more from those thoughts, Tina swallowed a lump in her throat as she realized that there was such a little time until her ever so fragile heart breaks completely. And that’s when she wouldn’t feel anything.