She pulls me close to her, “Alice, I would do anything for you.”

I feel myself falling right back into place with her. God, it is so easy to just let myself go. I can’t and won’t be sloppy seconds.

I pull myself up, “Look Dana, I love you, I do. But I can’t play second fiddle to anything or anyone. I think you know what I mean.” I look around the room, trying to avoid eye contact with her.

She grabs my hands, “Al, Lara and Iwell, we aren’t exactly going out.”

That catches my attention, “Dana, you practically ***** live with her.”

She smiles, I can swear she is laughing, “What the *****? This is funny to you? I won’t do this again, Dane. I won’t be your back door woman.” I stand.

She gets serious, standing in front of me, “Alice, no, it isn’t’ like that at all. Just listen ok. Just sitand listen.”

I let out a hard breath, reluctantly sitting down, “Ok, wellwell I don’t really know how to explain this.”

I look at her waiting for the answer.

“Well, Lara and I haven’t really been going out for the past two months. I suppose we are kinda apolymorphic or whatever except we don’t see each other or other people for that matter” she gets a confused look on her face, trying to explain the situation to me,

I brush a piece of hair from my face, trying to concentrate on her words, “What?”

“Wellwe stopped seeing each other, but decided to pretend like we still were.” She bits her lip, praying that I don’t jump to my feet and run out of the house.

I shake my head, “Dana, you don’t have to lie to me? You know, if we are going to start over we have to start on a clean slate. We can’t start on a lie.”

She grabs my hands, looking deep into my eyes, “I’m not lying Alice.”

She’s not. I know she isn’t. “Well, this makes no sense to me Dana. You expect me to believe that you and Lara aren’t’ going out. Even though I see you guys together in The Planet constantly and see was at your house this morningyou rememberwith the babes and I loves you’s and I’ll see you later’s?”