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If I Fall: Chapter 11
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And then Alice must have realized how close in proximity her face was to Dana’s because she abruptly pulled away and turned her attention back to the crashing waves. "You know, you were right about a lot of it. The relationship… it wasn’t making things any easier on me, and that’s probably my fault. But I pushed you away just as much as you pulled back from me on your own. And like I said, I wasn’t exactly making it easy for you to stick by me. I could hardly stand myself back then, I can’t imagine what you must have felt."
"I loved you, Alice."
"Yeah, but you know what I mean. It wasn’t really a picnic for either of us. Seriously though, if you were with anyone else at the time and you came to me for advice, as your best friend, I probably would have suggested you end it before it overtook your sanity as well. It was intense Dane, and you weren’t ready for it. And looking back now I guess, all things considered, I wasn’t quite ready for it either."
"But Al, I shouldn’t have just deserted you like I did."
Alice considered this, choosing her words carefully. "Maybe not. But I wouldn’t have wanted you to stay in it if you weren’t in love with me anymore."
Dana openly winced at Alice’s words. She couldn’t blame the writer for assuming that she left because she was no longer in love. However, it didn’t mean that it was true. She wanted to correct Alice, to tell her that she had to leave her because of how in love with her she actually was. That it was killing her to see such a deterioration in her lover and best friend, and that it took every ounce of strength and conviction Dana had to walk away so that someday there’d be something left to come back to. But what good would that do either of them now? They were both moving on, and neither one seemed sure of just where they stood with the other.
"What?" the writer asked after noticing Dana’s pained expression.
"Nothing. I guess I’m just so tired of feeling like shit about this whole thing. And I know I don’t deserve anyone’s pity, even my own, but it still hurts. And now you’re missing your own birthday party to console me and my stupid guilt. It’s not fair, you should be off enjoying tonight, not here with me."
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Hey Thank you great update. Gotta love that Danish. PPS.
I’m sorry, I can’t help it! I want danish together and if that means tainting Jules so you can no longer write him into this then yay! :P My plan is working mwahaha. As for that needy comment, uh em, no you don’t *shifts eyes nervously from side to side* I’m perfectly fine without an update from you. Do you buy that? This is Bradshaw saying you posted an awesome chapter once again and I’m mega jealous of your talent, over and out xx
Another great update! It was awesome, before, but I liked the additions too. Unlike your other readers I’m not quite ready for them to get back together. I don’t want Dana to suffer, but she has to be completely sure before she even gives a hint that she’s still interested in Alice. I’m sure Shane will figure it out – if she hasn’t already. :-) It’s so funny that De_Leish_ous is still calling Jules “him”. rofl I can’t wait for your next update.Yes, I got a little kick out of calling you busy. You left before noon? It’s official, I’m jealous. lol You’re right – Go Chargers! (But I sorta like the Ravens too.) Down with the Pats! lolThanks again for the update and the preview.
Aww, poor Dana. Sometimes I wish she’d quit with all the being scared and hiding her feelings crap, but this time she’s doing it for Alice’s sake, and I can’t help hurting for her a little bit. That’s such a tough situation to be in, and her guilt’s understandable, which somehow makes it even more sad. There was a lot of groundwork for a Danish romantic reconciliation in this update, and everything made complete sense in the context of both the storyline and the characters’ personalities. So yay. Oh, and as to the livejournal thing…I had a sneaking suspicion it was you just by the writing style, but I didn’t want to say that in case I was wrong because I’d look either insane or idiotic. But yay, I was right! Okay, I’ll stop babbling your life away now…love this story more every time you post!
It’s good that they have their friendship back on track. I can’t wait for Dana to tell Alice how she really feels though
Are you serious? How can a non-argument between these two be dissapointing? This chapter was more I than I exepcted! So will we have a slighlty drunk Alice (and Dana) in the next chapter. :)
so cute. what the heck is dana gonna do? i really liked the line “Dana’s heart seemed to pound in her chest, making sure she knew it was still beating just for Alice. ” how poetic! post soon.
Great update just wish it was 20 pages longer. My heart is breaking for Dana a little bit, poor thing. Granted she did it to herself. Love the intensity you are building and can’t wait to see what happens.
YAY … I finally caught up after not reading any fanfic in about 2 weeks. I absolutely can’t wait for your next update!
Awesome story.Nice to see them talking. hope it stays that way.Please post more soon.