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    If I Fall: Chapter 4

    Story written on December 5, 2006 by swismiss24.
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    A Danish Story! This had to happen sooner or later…but this time without Tracy Bonham playing the piano in the apartment next door.

    “Dana, don’t do this. I know I’ve been impossible lately and…and I’ll change. I promise, no more pills, no more booze. I’ll be the girl you want me to be. I’ve been unfair to you, and it’s not right and I realize that now. You haven’t done anything to deserve any of this, I get that, okay? I promise I’ll be better.”

    “Oh, Alice. You know it’s not that easy. And you promised me all that over a month ago, and what’s changed since then? Nothing, besides an increase in your dosage. I don’t want to leave you when you need help like this, but the help you need… I just can’t give you. And the constant bickering and tension between us isn’t helping the mental state of either one of us. Besides, I don’t want you to change for me. I want you to do that for you, Alice.” Dana waited a moment for Alice’s brain to register it all. And when she finally saw a look of recognition on her lover’s face, the heartbreak Alice was feeling seemed palpable.

    “I don’t know if I can…um…,” Alice was unable to get the rest of her thoughts out as the tears forced her to choke back her words. Dana just stood there, trying her best to restrain her own sobs, which were quickly matching Alice’s uncontrollable hysteria. “…if I can live without you.” The end of this sentence was swallowed by another one of Alice’s cries, as she put her hand up to her face to wipe away the steady stream of tears. It seemed like more of a plea to Dana than a statement. And this stung her even more. How could someone so strong and independent like Alice think that she needed anyone to survive?

    Dana couldn’t take the pain she was inflicting anymore and rushed over to hold her. “Oh, Alice.” The writer clung to her for dear life, as if she knew this would be the last time she’d feel Dana’s strong arms wrapped around her.

    “You can,” Dana wept. And even as the words were coming out of her mouth, she started doubting if she herself would be able to live without Alice. ‘God, this is too hard,’ she screamed in her head, ‘this feels so wrong, I can’t do this. I can’t be without her…No,’ she scolded herself, ‘Dana, for once you need to stop being such a fucking coward…But, isn’t running away from our problems cowardice too?’

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    1. Damn. I think you’ve outdone yourself with this one. I was in tears, and fanfic barely ever does that to me. And thanks for the compliment, although it’s undeserved…Danish needs justice because of the way they ended, and that’s that. This was incredibly moving and tragic, and I love the fact that you had dana leave for Alice’s own good instead of her own insecurities.

    2. Wow! This was really sad. I cried when I first saw the break up and you made me feel all over again the same pain. Thanks for the emotions, they felt so real it hurts.

    3. Man, from the euphoria of my J-E-T-S Jets, Jets, Jets – to the despair of my danish…You nailed it. As much as I wish I could be disappointed in Dana, I can understand why she needed to break away from Alice, but I also understand why Alice was crushed by Dana’s desertion. All I can do right now is sigh. It would be so much more fun to have Dana have to watch Alice eventually move on without her if she didn’t get cancer and die. I guess that’s why I read fanfic. Their love lives on – even when they’re not together. I wonder how long it will take for Lara the vulture to pounce.Great job! Keep it up!

    6. I’m not sure how I missed this one, but I am all caught up and this is fantastic and heartbreaking. You’re doing a wonderful job my friend. You did the scene justice. So my question is, when do they get back together??? lol. Great job. Looking forward to the next chapter. PPS

    7. This is such a remarkably well written chapter … I have enjoyed the previous 3 chapters … but this really gave so much weight to the existing material. Keep going … I can’t wait for the next update.

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