I think of her nice?  Oh god she is gorgeous and kind conseridate, I

could go on for ever. I’ll never tell her I fancied her once when we

first met.  If she hadn’t been with Bette eh?  Who am I kidding?  bette

and Tina are meant to be together.  Sadly they don’t seem to know it.  

They cheated on each other and now Tina is with a man EEEEWWW.
     Hopefully it won’t last.  Should I tell them?  Yes, yes I should.

My thoughts, my feelings.  They have to listen don’t they?  Yes they do

the position I’m in they have to.  Don’t they?  It’s not as if they

don’t love each other.  You can see it whenever they look at each

other.  But they will have to be told.  And if it’s one of the last

things I do before this is over I’ll do it. I know I will.  I’ll summon

up all my strength and do it.
     No, no stop thinking.  Stop trying to sort out the world.  Stop

worrying about others and worry about yourself and trying to stay here.

Not goin anywhere.  Not doing anything except….except what sleep.  

That’s all I’ve done is sleep.  I want to wake up, open my eyes.  I’m

sick…Omg I’m so sickof being tired, of sleeping of not being able to

do anything.
     Shane tells me to take it one day at a time, no rush.  Just like

Yoda.  She is so good with us, always there for others but not for

herself.  Luckily she has Carmen.  She is so wonderful and goos for

Shane.  They do seem so in love.
     Whats that?  What happened?  Oh god I fell asleepagain.  I can’t

belive I did that.  Wish I could stop just falling asleep.  Stop doing

it all together.  Wish I could stop thinking.  Can I do that?  Can I

stop thinking?  I’ll try.  Ok here’s goes.  Now.  Yes that’s…JESUS

GIRL STOP THINKING.  Just rambling on and on all rubbish and no sense.

Why can’t I stop it.  It’s like there’s so much in my head just going

round and round.  Driving me insane.
     Ooooooooohhhhhhhh another voice.  The whole gang must be here now.