I can hear Kitt.  Love Kitt.  She is like the mom I always wanted.  

Always there with words encouragement and hugs.  A true friend.
     Jesus is this what I sound like?  Is this what I’m like all the

time?  Do I ramble on and on.  Omg I bet I do but they are so kind and

considerate they wouldn’t tell me.
     Laying here day in and day outit’s all I’ve done for ages.  Not

even sure how long.  Feels like forever and ever but I can’t tell. It

must only be a short while.  I remember being in the hospital and them

letting me come home.  My friends have not left my side especially

Alice.  She hasn’t been away from me through all I have faced.  She has

been my rock, my support.  She is my everything.  I can feel her so

close to me now.  Her head on my bed, her breath on my hand.  She is

praying for me to wake up like she has prayed through all of this.  I

know she is.  She thinks she is whispering but I can hear her.  I love

her so much would I ever get the chance to be with her.  I don’t want

to think about anything else.  She fills my mind, my heart and my soul.

I want her so bad but I’m scared.  More scared than death.
     If I just touch her.  Feel her close to me.  Maybe just put my

hand on her head?  Let her know that way.  Will she understand from a

simple touch?  I don’t know?  I hope so?  I pray so?  I just have to

concentrate all my love into that one touch.  All of my emotions feel

so raw.  But the feelings I have for Alice feel so alive, so vibrant.
    I’ll do it now because if I don’t I may never get the chance again.

I’ll chicken out of it and I’l waste time and I don’t want to waste

anymore time.  Not now I know not ever again.
    I’m moving my hand.  Oh god I’m really doing it right now.  COME ON

HAND FASTER.  MOVE.  Now place it down gently….Jeez I said gently.
    My eyes are open now.  I can see the shock and realisation in hers.

She goes to shout.  Must want to let the others know.  Got to stop her.

How?  Omg think, hurry up and stop her.  I’m pulling her closer to me.  

Gonna kiss her that’ll stop her.  MMMMMMmmmmmmm I’ve missed kissing

her, She feels so soft, so tender and tastes so good.  Wow this feels

so great.  Think I need to breath.  Better stop just for a second.  

Tell her I love her.  Yes, yes she knows.  Clinging to me in my arms so

good.
    Whats that noise like a stampede, a heard of elephants.  I’m being

squashed it’s the gang.  They must have heard us.  This is great so

great.  To be able to see, hear, feel, smell and touch my friends. Now

to tell them, to let them know. Nothing is going to change.  We will

still be together.  No more thoughts of death or doom.  Of being alone

and lost.  I’m not going anywhere.
    I Shout at the top of my lungs,
    "ITS GONE. IT’S GONE."  They are looking at me.  Realisation

creeping across their faces.  They start shouting and screaming.  I

climb off the bed and join in.  Jumping up and down.  A new lease of

life a second chance to start over.
   

"IT’S GONE. THE CANCER IS GONE."