“Oh no offense taken…I like her a lot…but she is so closed off…all work no play…”

“Well it’s my little secret. I won’t tell her or anyone…you give her time…if she starts leaving music for you or being here when she is not on duty …then you’ll be alright…now bed…let me check your pulse…”

My pulse was good…a little elevated only because Shane was into me…not in a fan way…I knew she wanted me. All I had to do was be patient.

La Mer

Ch 7

Monday meant a new work week, meant more time with Carmen. After the weekend I had I was on edge. Seeing Sara knowing she wasn’t done with her games. I mean to come all the way down here…and do what she did ….I missed the band.

 On the way to work all I could think about was how this thing with Sara it was my fault. I played her game because I was so afraid of losing her. I did the dirty thing she wanted…me and her and him…and after that everything was different. That was all she wanted. She didn’t want me. She didn’t need me and she sure as hell didn’t love me. And no feeling in the world could make that ache go away. This wasn’t some game, I was head over heels in love with a viper.

No not in love….. not anymore. I was different. I don’t walk down the same miserable block just to feel. That was the old Shane.

I walk into the hospital feeling a little normal. I was gonna see Carmen. I had a job. I had to be professional. I knock on the door and I hear Carmen say come in. My soul felt so happy to see her. Like I hadn’t seen her in a year. My body filled with air. I smiled beside myself. Everything I was thinking about Sara seemed to float away. She was playing the CD I leant her….she had on a hot pink tank top…and her bathing suit under it. It was white. I stared at her a little too long and she seemed amused.