Even if Marissa wasn’t willing to admit it, she’d had fun without Bette attached to her. She loved to have fun alone, and not have anyone to answer to, this life was all her own to have and she didn’t want to have to answer for her whereabouts. But the allure of sleeping with a wealthy doctor gave her a feeling of maybe she could change and that this was the step her life needed to take. Besides that, the way Bette pursued her and courted her, was completely out of her realm. She’d been taken away by her charm and she was under the impression that their relationship would always be this exciting. She was wrong. And she knew she was wrong for letting Bette believe that she also wanted the kind of relationship that had levels to build on that could lead to marriage. By becoming acquiescent to Bette’s behavior and lack of interest in their relationship she also allowed their relationship to dwindle down to nothing more than strangers sharing a bed.

With her arms splayed out over the couch she hadn’t moved from the seat she’d taken four hours previous. The sun had set and the night’s dull noises could be heard through the living room’s stark silence. Her breathing was steady and although usually nights and moments like this she would allow her body to accept sleep and move into another day, she couldn’t leave her mind like this. So rattled and unsettled needing to get rid of this pain that this relationship was causing them both.  Through the window she could see the cast  of light across the walls from Marissa’s car pulling into her driveway.

With the darkness of the house and the complete lack of noise coming from the inside, she assumed Bette had just gone to bed. It wasn’t until she opened the door and saw the red  and void eyes of her girlfriend staring at her, that she realized this was the end. The look on her face as she stepped across the threshold was what hammered it home. This was to be their final meet and this was something that could not be avoided by leaving or ignoring the other person.  So for once in this relationship she sat down and decided to take her poison.