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Lifeline – Chapter 11
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I want to see you, baby! I want to feel your skin on mine. My heart aches for you, Bette.
I have to stop this.
It’s not helping.
I need to think about the story.
That’s where I started.
Thinking about the Anniversary Story.
About love.
I love when you tell me how you really feel, what you’re thinking. Not just that you love me and that you love to look at me, although that’s wonderful and that’s enough in itself. But when you tell me your innermost thoughts I feel like I have everything, everything I could ever want, everything I need.
Your thoughts and feelings about us are like food to me. They sustain me, they strengthen my heart and feed my soul. I don’t think I could live without them, B. Not anymore. Not since I’ve tasted the fruit of your love. I’ve been tossed out of the Garden on my ass and here I am.
Well, not here exactly, but figuratively.
Is it just me, or do I sound a little drunk? I can’t be, can I?
Unless this really is a dream and in the dream I’m drunk.
(What is this medication I’m on?)
I’m babbling.
What I mean to say is that everything is different than it was before I had you. I was a different person. I was a person who didn’t know what love is, what it would do to me.
It changed my DNA, I think.
It reordered the molecules and atoms of my heart.
You did that to me, Bette.
You.
I love you as I have never loved anyone else and I love loving you.
I love being in love with you.
Because when you get right down to it, that’s all we’ve really got to hold on to, isn’t it?
Like now. What else have I got?
I can’t walk or eat or work or play or make anyone hear me or do any of the normal things I do in my life.
I don’t have anything anymore, Bette, except my thoughts and memories… and my love for you.
LOVELOVELOVE.
I’m sorry.
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Soooo sad,but beautiful written.Thank you.
Excellent as always, Nell. Two thumbs up! =) They’re not there yet but at least they’ve both made some progress. Bette teased Tina and laughed again and Tina babbled on and on to amuse herself and is hell-bent on being with Bette again. I’ll be right here waiting for Tina’s awakening. I love this line, Nell. => “I love the small hollow at the base of your throat where I have left a thousand kisses like wishes in a well.” (As an aside, that hollow called the suprasternal notch was mentioned in “The English Patient”.) Anyway, this post cheered me up, Nell. Thanks a bunch! =)
Thanks for another beautiful chapter. I’m so glad Tina is aware of her surroundings. Hopefully when the sedatives get out of her system she’ll wake up…
This an incredible, beautiful story!
Wonderful update. It’s great that Tina is trying so hard to get back to Bette. And her thoughts are helping her out of the subconscious and since the doctor is cutting back on some of the medications, just maybe, she will start to awaken especially if Bette continues to read to her and talk to her. Hopefully she will watch for any signs of wakefulness like Tina moving her finger or big toe as Tina is trying to do. If she is covered Bette won’t see the toe but she can see the finger and, of course, she will see her tears if she cries as Tina is trying to do. Has Alice brought all the things on the list to the hospital yet? The music and other things that Bette wants for her to have in her room should help so much. Alice needs to hurry back with those items. Maybe she will come back in the next chapter. Fantastic chapter. Thanks for posting.
I’ve got to tell you, I am so loving this story. That’s an incredible idea, letting us in on Tina’s subconscious. If only they could communicate that way. Looking forward to your next post with great anticipation!
I really enjoy reading this story. It is one of my favorite Tibette stories! I know we need to be patient because everything will be fine, but reading it makes me wanna cry because it is beautifully written!
Hey, Nell. I just finished rereading this post. Tina’s reflections on love choked me up. Sorry if I sound too sappy but I can’t help it. I feel bad that Tina feels helpless and stuck in oblivion but I’m glad that their lava-hot love and their rich history and colorful memories are keeping her sane and hopeful. They are each other’s lifeline and I look forward to reading how they both inch closer to their reunion. Again, huge thanks for such an engaging and well-written story, Nell. Cheers! =)
Another beautiful chapter. I find myself rereading passages and just adore your writing style.
i’ll tell you, if anyone did that to me, when my hands were free, i would kill them… anyway… love this story… and i also know tina will work her way back to bette.. keep reading bette, tina is listening… pps
Thank you, Nell, for another wonderful chapter. You write so beautifully, taking us with such delicacy through Tina’s thoughts – her fear, her concern for Bette, her jokes and teasing, her love. And always phrases leap out – I agree with mightymouse’s choice, and also when Tina speaks of fighting for her life and says: “Presumably that’s what I’m doing, although it feels a lot more like loitering – or a very dull and solitary vacation on the shores of oblivion.” Have I said how much I’m LOVING your story?!! I want Tina to wake up, but don’t want your story to end, so I’m relying on you to accommodate that for me!
This story needs to bs continued. Soon, please. I can only reread this story incomplete so many times…
This is sad and hope Tina will wake up soon, can’t see them like this. Please post more, thanks!
So well written. SO heartbreaking. Please let her wake up soon. Thank you for this story.
Every day I check to see if there’s a new chapter…I hope you come back with a new chapter. This story is too good…PPS